Hello Erin, I am sorry for your loss. I lost my Life-Partner of 22 years, Robert, on May 08, 2007, and still hurt like it was just yesterday. I lost my Mom on Christmas Day, 2006. This past July was particularly difficult because Robert and I would have been together for 24 years. I count the months and mark the dates for Robert, my Mom and my brother, who I lost in July, 2001. All of the questions that you ask are the same questions that we all have been asking and I have yet to find any answers. I don’t have any words of encouragement but there are many people who read this forum. We are all experiencing the same pain. I have felt and still feel so many things you feel and wrote about. Thank you for sharing. Here is a link to Robert’s Legacy Memorial website if you wish to visit. Barry
I don't have any words of comfront or a magic cure that will just make all of your hurt go away. All I can tell you is that what your feeling is okay. They are your feelings and you have a right to them. Don't let anyone tell you that your wrong for the way you feel. Remember that even God got angry when they hung his son on the cross. Remember that the strongest verse in the bible is two words. Jesus wept. So it is ok to be angry ( God Was) it is ok to cry (Christ did). So when people tell you its time to stop tell them this is your grief and that you are not going to let them take it away from you.
Barry my friend I know that in a few days you are going to go through He** and I want you to know that I am here for you my friend if you need a shoulder to cry on.