I am lost.
I lost my husband on April 27th eventhough we have been together for 5 years and married for 2 I feel I have lost my everything. He was only 42 years old and was working out in the yard and wasn't feeling well so he came in and laid down, 10 minutes later he was dead.
I don't know what to do, most of the day I just go through the motions not really knowing or understanding what I'm doing. Just when I think I have a handle on my emotions, a smell, a sound, a memory brings back the tears that won't stop and it usually happens when I least expect it. Time is going by and I am standing still.
Sorry for the rambling.
hi i need some advice today my best friend just found out that he dad was dead do to suiside he is 16 his dad shot im self in the head i mean it wierd we were just with him saterday all day then left for home and he even did it in front of his brother any way long story short how can i help him its really trobbleing my his dad was like a father to me to pleas help
On the morning of March 2, 2007, I lost my husband David to a heart arrhythmia, he was only 36 years old.. On that day, my world collapsed. Prior to that I had lost my sister Lissette on 6-1-06 due to cervical cancer. So in 9 months time my bright beautiful world turned into night. I still have not come to terms with my loss. I've been to therapy etc, but its not as simple as talking about it and everything gets better. I don't cry every day but I cry on more days then some. When my sister died, i thought i was prepared for it, hey we knew she was dying the doctors told us it was a matter of time. But nevertheless it hurt when she died, it still hurts. Sometimes when i miss David, i pick up the phone to call her and knowing she is not there, tears me to pieces. I thought i had lost my head, but then David died... I still have trouble talking about it. I was NOT prepared for David dying. David death was unexpected, we did not even know he had this heart arrhythmia. He was only 36 years old, and our son was 3 yrs old at the time. All i can say is thank God for the baby, because if not, i don't know where i would be today. Granted, I am not that same person i was before. I used to fly off the handle and get upset about trivial things. You know like if the house was not clean etc. But now i feel that life is too short, and you just don't know if you are saying good nite for the last time. Who cares waht the house looks like now. My husband, my rock when my sister died, and to lose that rock, that person i thought i was going to grow old with just boggle my mind. I understand how you feel Barry. I agree with you, nothing makes sense. I try to explain to my son why i tell him that his daddy and aunty are ok in heaven, when i am a mess. He can not understand why the book i read to him written by maria shriver, "what is heaven" seems so beautiful & wonderful, yet i am so sad. All i tell him is that i miss his daddy & his aunty. And God knows i miss them so much. Barry, i know yesterday was tough, and i wish that i could say tomorrow is going to be better, but it might never be. After my sister passed away, David said to me that if something ever happened to him, he said it was ok for me to cry if i missed him but he wanted me to smile. If Robert was anything like David, i know he would want you to smile. I do that, i cry when i think of David but i also smile. Almost like when the sun is out but its raining. Smile, Robert is watching.... You can visit my site for david on legacy. Name is david o'connor, he was & will always be my sunshine... Tammy O'Connor
Tonight has been a night!! I'm getting ready for the Syracuse Nationals car show...taking Toms '72 Chevelle. We've taken it the past couple of years and I still want to keep up the tradition. I took the picture of him in the Chevelle to be blown up to 11 x 17 and laminated...I'm going to place his picture with a single rose with the car, plus I had an "In Memory of...Bunzy" decal made for the back window. Anyway, after having the picture made up...get in the car and on the radio is Lonestar's "I'm already there". Everytime I hear this song I think of our kids and how much WE ALL miss him and I can just here him saying He's already here for us...after that song came Bonnie Rait "Total Eclipse of the Heart", which right now is my life..."once upon a time I was falling in love...now, I'm only falling apart" (that's how it feels). After that song was Green Day with "Good Riddance"...played that at his funeral..."Hope you had the time of your life." and then it was Styx "Babe"..."Babe, I"m leaving I must be on my way....I have always loved Styx and this song especially. We've seen them in concert at least 3 times. This song is just so fitting with our life now. So, with all these songs that have specific meanings playing one right after the other I KNOW Tom had to be sitting in that car (and not just the 11 x 17 photo, of him) with me all the way home. A few times I had trouble seeing through all my tears, but if I think of it as him giving me those songs to let me know he's near by it makes me feel good because more than anything (other than having him back where he belongs) I want to know that he's close and watching us and taking care of us.
Just had to share. Thanks for listening.
Always and Forever
Is anyone having problems accessing their "my page". I can't access mine or anyone else's page either. Everytime I try I keep getting a "Ning" page about social networking...I don't want that page. Any suggestions or help would be greatly appreciated. Thanks