i know how you feel for i am also a only child now. i lost my only sibling, my brother john 6 1/2months ago in a car wreck five days after my birthday. that was the last time i heard his voice and talked to him he called me the morning of my birthday to wish me a happy birthday as he always did. we too where very close a little over 1 year apart, we always took care of each other, me being the oldest i took care of him more on a finacial base, but he was always there for me when i was feeling afraid, sad, just like things were as bad as they could be , just seeing him made some situations seem like it was ok. even though he was my little brother, he to was 6 feet tall and people thought he was the oldest . he was living in calif at time of death and my mom me and two boys in texas. we were a very close family, he was the best uncle to my boys., he was just a one of a kind guy, he touched the hearts of people he came to know, very helpful never bullshited you what you saw is what you got with him. i feel like i lost apart of my soul and i can't stop crying over this, and all i want to do is talk about him but it seems like everyone else is trying to move on. i thought about him the day it happen i talked about him to co workers , and thougt about calling him just to say what up. but i never did . that night mom got call from the calif sheriff. the only person that knows what happen is his fiance who was driving the car, and who is also carring his one and only baby, mircle baby he is 35 and thought he couldn't have babies, we want the baby to know us and know her dad, but they to live so far away, she says she will let us be apart of the baby life , as of now we only get updates when we reach out, he was so happy about his baby, everyone that seen him days before accident said he was really happy with his life finally, and he dreamed that the baby was girl and she is the first girl in our family since 30 years, savannah rose dunn will be with us on dec. 13, 2009. and the idea that he wont be there to welcame her is another sad thoughthe is missin so much it breaks my heart. i miss my brother so much and everyday is just as hard if not harder than the first
Effie said:Nu-Tausha, I am an only child now too as my only sibling and brother passed away two and a half years ago in a car accident, leaving behind a new wife and two young sons, my parents and myself. I can tell you that when it is your only sibling and you become an only child after their death it can be very traumatic for the survivor. I wish I didn't know that so well. I feel like half of me is in the ground also. I miss him every day and I cry for him every day. For me it has not gotten easier. I wish I could say it has. But that would be a lie. HOwever everyone deals with death differently. I miss being called "sis". I miss feeling like no matter what happened in my life my brother would be there for me. Now I must live for the rest of my life without him and that is a scary thought for me. Iam 40 and he was my younger brother but he was so tall, 6'4, that I felt like he was older sometimes. I called him my "big" brother. He was a great person and I too want desperately for his two sons to know him through my eyes, but they live very far away now. But someday. All I can say is that I know exactly, exactly, how you feel. I live with a ghost too. It's very lonely. I understand.
nu-tausha mason said:My name is Nu-Tausha Mason and I am an only child now. I am so alone and my heart hurts. My beloved brother Tu-mack Mason passed away on Sep.6-2009 of a accidental drug overdose from medications that the doctor had perscribed for a work injury he had went through a month earlier. This was so unexpected he was only 25 years old. He left behind three children and two nephews and a niece. My brother was always ther for me no matter how bizzare the situation and we were so close that it feels like part of me has been put in the dirt with him. I will never be the same again I know this in my heart. We were not always the best to eachother but we had a bond that you only have once in a lifetime. I find it very difficult to live each day and just want to pick up the phone and call him. His wifes family took care of the funeral and I feel guilty that in the end I could do nothing but cry, that's all I can do anymore. I didn't get to say goodbye. He stopped by my house a few days before his overdose and I wasn't at home, why? Why couldn't I have had that one day? Would I have been able to tell there was something wrong? Did this happen by accident? My brother and I have had a history of drug abuse in our lives and my brother had legal problems. Was he tired of the fight? Did he just over do it? Was he scared he was going to prison and didn't have the use of his hands anymore for protection. Did the depression finally get the better of him? Will his children and nieces and nephews remember him? Well they will if I have anything to do with it. No matter what was going on in my brothers life he was always a good dad. He loved kids expecially his own and mine. Our dad and mom have lost two children now, they lost a little baby girl at birth back in 81 or 82. My mom hasn't spoke to me since a few days after the funeral. My dad and I recindled our relationship after the passing. I have since went to rehab because I was dealing with all this in a destructive way and if I had not gone I might had ended up the same, and I have to be around to keep my brothers name alive. It is coming up on 12 weeks and I feel no better emotionaly than the day my friend came to tell me that he was put in the hospital, and that there was no brain activity. I remember walking into the hospital room and seeing his body lying there unresponsive and his pupils fixed also without response. I have flashbacks of all this and yet I find it hard to remeber the last conversation we had, Why? I just wanted to get some of this off my chest and I realy don't feel any better but it's worth a try. If anyone can relate please do so I could use some support right now. Thank you.
never did i think i would get a broken heart from my brother. he was my best friend the one i truly counted on and trusted. he was taken from this world by his girlfriends sister who my high on meth, heroin, and linthium!! she tried to kill her own sister and my two nephews too. some believe that when victor died his soul/spirit caused the gun to jam so she could not hurt them. i know that if he could of done that then thats exactly what he did. i miss him so much. it was exactly one week before christmas in 2008. the trial started in dec 2009. she recieved life in prison without the possibility of parole. okay so she got what she deserved but were still left without a son, brother, uncle, father...best friend. where is the justice, really? even if she was given the death penalty i still would not be happy because nothing will ever bring back my sweet brother!!!
Chrissy said:never did i think i would get a broken heart from my brother. he was my best friend the one i truly counted on and trusted. he was taken from this world by his girlfriends sister who my high on meth, heroin, and linthium!! she tried to kill her own sister and my two nephews too. some believe that when victor died his soul/spirit caused the gun to jam so she could not hurt them. i know that if he could of done that then thats exactly what he did. i miss him so much. it was exactly one week before christmas in 2008. the trial started in dec 2009. she recieved life in prison without the possibility of parole. okay so she got what she deserved but were still left without a son, brother, uncle, father...best friend. where is the justice, really? even if she was given the death penalty i still would not be happy because nothing will ever bring back my sweet brother!!!