Ms. Kaitlyn, I too have a daughter named Katelynn, she is 17 also, a junior in highschool. We both lose my son, Brandon on May 20th, 2008 to suicide. I feel extremly sad for your lose of both your dad and your brother. Suicide is such a waste and hurts so many who are left behind to face that pain. That emptiness feeling we have when we consently think of those who we have lost.
When I was in my twenties my uncle on my mothers side shot himself when he knew he would have to return to prison due to a DWI. My son shot himself for the pain he had been dealing with since his mother was murdered in 1985. I tried to explain to my kids that suicide was a cowards way out when my uncle died not understanding how depression and dispear can effect ones clear thinking. I was wrong on how I felt when I was younger. Unfortunately I was unable to reach my son in time before his demise.
Please know that your father loved you tremdously as all us fathers and mothers love our children. Your mother will need you more than ever now. Please be a strength for her and your sister. They need you, and you them more than ever. Be strong! My family and my Katelynn will pray for you and your family that Gods grace and guidence will ease your pain in the coming times ahead. Please know your father is still with you and will see you again. You'll be together soon enough. He would want you to live your live to the fullest and help the rest of your family through the sad times ahead. Please take care, sincerely. JBT Arlington, TX.
I have just recently lost the one I love, my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years, my best friend, my lover, my companion....he committed suicide by gun shot on Friday January the 16th 2009, and was alive for 2 days after that...he passed away at 10:35 am on Sunday January 18th 2009...I feel so bad and depressed right now...i was the last one to talk to him...I received a call about, well not even a minute later from his sister and she was yelling at me and crying telling me why did i do this to her brother and that he shot himself in the head and he wasnt breathing, I didnt believe her I asked her what are you talking about?She replied again the same thing she just said, she then proceeded to tell me that she didnt want to talk to someone who did this to her brother...I immediately fell to the floor crying....i was at a loss for words and was intent in my own thoughts and feelings....I felt guilty because a few months ago we moved in with each other and I ended up putting him out of my house 3 weeks before this but it was because of very good reasons, he started becoming abusive and i felt like my life was in danger every time he started to get angry ...long story short, we got back together and a week before he did this i just explained to him that i needed time and that we needed to be apart...i guess he couldnt grasp it but he knew that he had done me very very wrong for quite a while...the night this happened i was on my way home from work, but something told me DONT GO HOME because i knew that he was mad, so i didnt, i went straight to my cousins house...he was repeatedly calling and texting me...he ended up texting his suicide note to my phone and thats when i got the call from his sister....i cant even explain how tramatic this is for me....his sister still blames me and i feel like she has told the world that this is all my fault...i get threats from people because of her and what she has told people...his funeral was the hardest thing ive ever had to deal with in my life...actually it was the hardest day of my life...his casket was closed throughout the funeral and as they wheeled his casket down the ile, i thought that they had put him in the hurst, but to my shock they had opened his casket for the first time at the front doors so you had to walk by and see him before you left the church...i was walking and my eyes fell upon his face, he didnt look like himself at all,i felt my knees give out and blackness surrounding me, i dont even remember getting into the car, i remember hyperventalating and felt that i couldnt breathe....i couldnt even go to his burial because i couldnt take anymore pain....I try to remind my self everyday that this is not my fault, and God has helped me get this far and i thank my family for being here for me through this hard time....i can now talk about and im not crying every minute....so thanks to God and my family and friends because without them i would be a terrible mess right now...R.I.P Demontre Cartrel Carter...01-01-1990-01-18-2009....I love you....09-26-06<3 Always in my heart!!