14 Months

Hi friends, it was 14 months ago today that my best friend left to go to heaven. Yes, I miss him, I want him back with me to hold my hand, talk to me, give me the strength he always did...but....I know I can't have him back here with me, but everyday, every moment Brad is with me, holding my hand, talking to me and he is giving me strength to go on. Today I did a lot of thinking and I am so thankful that I had that time with him, we had a "fairy tale" life, together 24/7/365 and yes while I do miss that, I thank him for the time we had together and I truly believe that one day we will be together holding hands again.When the day comes for me to go to heaven I know he will be standing there waiting for me. Until then all I can do is be positive for him, he gave me so much, this is the least I can do for him. I didn't think I'd make it this far, and there are days when I don't think I can go on, but then I find that I can go on and make him proud of me. It was a sad day today but I thank all of you who hold me up when I'm ready to fall down. Just had to get this out. Hugs and love to all of you, my friends!

P.S. I know Brad has sent each and everyone to me!!

Barb

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Permalink Reply by Virginia on October 6, 2010 at 4:14pm

Barb, stay strong, you are making good progress and as you know he is right beside you all the way. we are here for each other tru think and thin, your doing good hugs

Permalink Reply by bc on October 6, 2010 at 8:58pm

Thanks Kathy, I know he's proud of me.

kathy obiedzinski said:

barb: yes brad is and will always be with you. maybe in spirit only he knows you got a new job and meeting new people. be strong for him and you will succed in everything you do. i am sure brad is saying that is my girl barb i am very proud of her good luck with your job

Permalink Reply by Linda O'Connor on October 6, 2010 at 9:31pm

Barb, what your have said is an inspiration to all the new ones who have joined us here. Many of us are trying to do our best to go on & be positive and live our lives as our loved ones would want us to do. You, Nancy, Mary, Kathy, Randolph, Tom, Virginia & others have inspired me so much to try to enjoy each day & make it count. Yes, I truly believe we will be joined together in Heaven, hand in hand, forever. As you said so wonderfully; we must hold each other up when we fall, as we will still do, from time to time. We must remember the wonderful times together & the memories that we shared. Brad & my Kevin are waiting for us in a wonderful place, when it is our time to be with them. Love & Hugs to all.

Permalink Reply by bc on October 7, 2010 at 6:26am

That' s right Linda, I'm here for you! Enjoy your day. Hugs to you!

Linda O'Connor said:

Barb, what your have said is an inspiration to all the new ones who have joined us here. Many of us are trying to do our best to go on & be positive and live our lives as our loved ones would want us to do. You, Nancy, Mary, Kathy, Randolph, Tom, Virginia & others have inspired me so much to try to enjoy each day & make it count. Yes, I truly believe we will be joined together in Heaven, hand in hand, forever. As you said so wonderfully; we must hold each other up when we fall, as we will still do, from time to time. We must remember the wonderful times together & the memories that we shared. Brad & my Kevin are waiting for us in a wonderful place, when it is our time to be with them. Love & Hugs to all.

Permalink Reply by Virginia on October 7, 2010 at 7:02am

Hi Linda, thank you but as with you, i have all of you and those you mentioned on here to thank. I just wish it didn't take me a yr. to find this site. Helping each other as only those of us going thru this can do is a true inspiration. HUGS to all
Linda O'Connor said:

Barb, what your have said is an inspiration to all the new ones who have joined us here. Many of us are trying to do our best to go on & be positive and our lives as our loved ones would want us to do. You, Nancy, Mary, Kathy, Randolph, Tom, Virginia & others have inspired me so much to try to enjoy each day & make it count. Yes, I truly believe we will be joined together in Heaven, hand in hand, forever. As you said so wonderfully; we must hold each other up when we fall, as we will still do, from time to time. We must remember the wonderful times together & the memories that we shared. Brad & my Kevin are waiting for us in a wonderful place, when it is our time to be with them. Love & Hugs to all.

Permalink Reply by CINDY POWELL on October 7, 2010 at 7:53pm

barb, you are a very strong positive person i can tell. brad would be very proud of you. i believe you are doing everything you can to make him proud of you.i wish you the best of luck on your new job, whatever it is.

Permalink Reply by bc on October 7, 2010 at 8:23pm

Thanks Cindy, I am trying to do things that Brad would be proud of and live each day as he woud want me to. Thanks for your encouragement! I am working at a new hospital here that is opening on Nov. 1st so there's a lot of training going on. I will be working as a receptionist in the Orthopaedic Wing of the hospital along with day surgery check ins so I will be busy and won't have much time to think as I do now. Hope you are doing okay, please keep in touch! Hugs to you, Barb

CINDY POWELL said:

barb, you are a very strong positive person i can tell. brad would be very proud of you. i believe you are doing everything you can to make him proud of you.i wish you the best of luck on your new job, whatever it is.

Permalink Reply by bc on October 7, 2010 at 8:23pm

barb, you are a very strong positive person i can tell. brad would be very proud of you. i believe you are doing everything you can to make him proud of you.i wish you the best of luck on your new job, whatever it is.

Permalink Reply by CINDY POWELL on October 7, 2010 at 9:31pm

BARB, YOU WILL LOVE WORKING IN A HOSPITAL. I HAVE WORKED IN PBX/SECURITY FOR ALMOST 10 YEARS. THEIR IS ALOT TO KEEP YOU BUSY AND SINCE IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU WILL BE THE UPFRONT PERSON YOU WILL GET TO MEET LOTS OF PEOPLE. IT SHOULD KEEP YOU PLENTY BUSY. GOOD LUCK TO YOU. KEEP US POSTED ON HOW IT GOES FOR YOU.

Barb said:

Thanks Cindy, I am trying to do things that Brad would be proud of and live each day as he woud want me to. Thanks for your encouragement! I am working at a new hospital here that is opening on Nov. 1st so there's a lot of training going on. I will be working as a receptionist in the Orthopaedic Wing of the hospital along with day surgery check ins so I will be busy and won't have much time to think as I do now. Hope you are doing okay, please keep in touch! Hugs to you, Barb

CINDY POWELL said:
barb, you are a very strong positive person i can tell. brad would be very proud of you. i believe you are doing everything you can to make him proud of you.i wish you the best of luck on your new job, whatever it is.