I need everyone's prayers and support tomorrow. It will be one month since Kris' passing and it's also my late day at work where I spend a lot of time by myself.
I did my first big thing by myself this past weekend... I made it through the whole weekend at the Syracuse Nationals car show. I took Tom's '72 Chevelle. Every year we take one of his cars...although, this year we were supposed to take both the Chevelle and his 1930 Model A, but the Model A is still sitting in the garage. He had rebuilt it from the frame up and was almost finished with it, but not quite enough to take it to the show. This was something we loved to do and he was always so proud to show off his work. I HAD to go to honor him. I had an "In Memory of Bunzy" decal made for the back window and I opened the hood and put a pic of him sitting in the Chevelle (blown up to an 11 x 17) under the hood with a rose so everyone could see him and know him. Most of the time I was able to hold it together pretty well. The hardest part was getting there first thing Friday morning, just being there was pretty emotional, but I got most of it out of my system early. Then the last day I ("we") was given an award...the Rep's Choice "Right One" award for committment and dedication to the cars even with everything that is going on. I tried really hard to hold it together while having to drive through to receive the plaque. I just want to honor him in everything I do and the cars were such a big part of our lives that I have to keep going for him.
Christine, I know that tomorrow will be 5 months. I visited Annette’s website and saw the new profile image and the new pictures. Annalise, I know that it was 5 months last Friday.
I haven’t felt much like writing but I wanted to let you know that I do think about you. I have been pretty out of it lately - feeling like I’m slowly sinking deeper and deeper into a dark abyss, since the three anniversaries this month. I still shake my head because I can’t believe any of this is true. I miss Robert so much that my words could never express.
Annalise, thank you for adding the entry to Robert's Guest Book. It took me by surprise and when I saw the picture I got emotional, as usual. It was very kind of you. Barry
hi barry....it's so so tough but u know that more than anyone else.
i have had to resort to anti-depressants..not something i wanted to do but i just could not take the intense pain any longer..i feel a bit number..i KNOW it is not the answer but i am only human......
hi everyone..i think this verse is so fitting...it deals more with losing a child but anyone who is ploughing through this tough road can interpret it accordingly.
I wear a pair of shoes
They are ugly shoes
I hate my shoes
Each day I wear them and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step
Yet, I continue to wear them
I get funny looks wearing these shoes
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not their's
They never talk about my shoes
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt
No woman deserves to wear these shoes
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.