My wife took her life on March 8th, 07. That was just one day before her 33rd birthday. It is almost 3 years later and I still have not completely let go. tthere are times i want to sit hold her picture and cry. for the first 6-8 months I drank morning till night. I became an alcoholic. I tried to take my own life I have never really had any kind of counseling other then A.A. I realised one day that I was not the person that crystal had married, due to the constant alcohol consumption. I decided to sober up and put myself in a residential treatment facility. I am clean and sober today but not really truelly happy. I want to move forward with my life. I want to make her proud, I just dont know how.