To both that have replyed to my post: Thank you so much for your support. I just dont know how I feel or where to turn. I am still in the state of shock. Tonight at the viewing was just so overwhleming.. Eh... Sorrry about type o just really stressed and upset and not thinking so clear. Just seeig him lay in casket was heart breaking for me. I never dreamed at 24yrs old that I was be doing this. My b-day is in 2weeks from this frirday (12th) and I am not at all looking forward to it. I miss him so much.. It does not feel like that it has been only a few days. 4days already and it feels like it has been so much longer than that. Do the days ever seem to get back to normal do they ever start to feel right again? I think I might get that book you both spoke of and see if it helps me any.. Anything at this point to help me with this heart ache. Tomorrow is the serivce (saturday) I have wrote a little somthing to read. I hope that I can make it.. Just ready to lay down and sleep for a few days.. I am so sleepy and just lost.