SUE--THANK YOU FOR YOUR MESSAGE. IT IS 2:20AM HERE AND I CAN NOT FALL ASLEEP. I JUST KEEP THINKING.. I CAN NOT WRAP MY HEAD AROUND THIS WHOLE THING. IT HAS TOO GET BETTER. I HAVE A BOOK I HAVE BEEN READING ABOUT DEATH, I FOUND THE FIVE PHASES OF DEATH ON A WEB SITE, FROM A LOCAL FUNERAL HOME, THAT HAS HELPED. I AM HAVING A CLASS REUNION IN MAY--A COUPLE OF MY FRIENDS FROM SCHOOL HAVE ALSO LOST A CHILD, BUT WANT TO HAVE SOME FUN, NOT JUST TALK, EVEN THOUGH WE WILL PROBABLY WANT TOO. IT SEEMS LIKE TALKING ABOUT MIKE IS GOOD THERAPY FOR ME. I AM GLAD THAT I FOUND YOU TOO,,THINKING OF YOU--MACKY
I am so sorry for your loss. I can not imagine what you are going through as a mother. I lost my husband and I feel like I can't breathe. I find that loss by suicide is much different than other grieving. I lost my dad and grandfather died in my arms and none compares to this. I find I want to talk about my Mike all the time. You talk about your son as much as you need to. I would love to hear about him. My thoughts and prayers are with you.