Thank you Linda. It is a soul thing. We all are a product of our experience and our family history. I have hope and I trust and I choice to allow myself to believe that all things are possible. I feel sad for those that "don't get it". I wish everyone could have "the peace that passes all understanding" and they can if they choice but it is their decision. We can only express what we know to be a fact and they have to open their heart and receive. God gave us choice, it is hard to understand why someone would not accept that simple gift but I didn't for 32 years.
Thank you for your friendship. I am so blessed by this sight. It helped me to understand what others are going through and mostly that what I am going through is the normal process of grieving. If there is a normal, I should say normal for me. I am an eternal optimist and even for me losing Tom so suddenly and so final, almost killed me but I still am alive and I know now I will survive this. He is always with me and I know as time goes on he will move further away because he can and I will need his presence less. I think that is just how it works. I was so blessed to be so loved and to have been able to love him as I did. I miss that love and support but he is with me because he is still so much the best part of me. That can never die.
I have his three grand daughters with me for a few weeks. 13, 16,18.(just graduated). They are waiting for this house to get finished and Mom and them will move in then. Mom is staying with her fianca. I figure it is practice for foster care. I am enjoying them and all their laughing and teasing and just routine drama. They have always been very close to us and they loved their Pappaw so much. The older one put in her high school memory book that Pappaw, she called him by name, was her real father and the standard that she set for any man in her future. Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! See, he lives. Fondly, Suep
Yes, there is a heaven. The bible says, "To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord". The body and the soul are together in the phyiscal sense, but not the spiritual. The body will return to ashes but the soul goes to Jesus, if you believe in him. While my grandfather was in the hospital, before passing away, he raised his hands to heaven and said, "Bethann don't you see them?". I questioned what he was seeing and he replied, "The angels Bethann, they are surrounding us, they are in this room". So yes he is in heaven waiting on me and I too will one day join him. There is a heaven to gain, and a hell to shun.