Cindy, I, too, am lonely and frightened. I never lived alone before in my life. I am terrified of being alone. I am making decisions that I am not sure I should be making or even whether these decisions are the best for me. I am on anti-depressants and sleeping pills and sometimes that does not even help. As you said, we too did everything together. Even if it was to go to the gas station 1/4 of a mile away, we would go together. Grocery shopping, Christmas shopping, there was never a time that we were alone. Even near the end when he couldn't walk well, he would still go with me. He would wait in the car because he couldn't walk around the stores but he was outside waiting for me. Life is hell and there is no easy way around this. It is going to take a lot of determination to get through what we are experiencing. I wish there was something that I could say that would make it better for you right now but, unfortunately, there isn't. The only bright spot I can offer you is this website. There is always someone available to listen and to help out in whatever way they can. May God Bless You and I will remember you in my prayers.