Lately i have been noticing that i seem to be getting angrier and angrier by the day. I am sick of seeing others around me full of happiness when i am so miserable. Since my husband passed away feb 26th i feel like i have nothing to live for.He was my everything. I know some of you know exactly how i feel. But i dont like feeling like this. I am only 55 years old but I feel like my life is over. I just dont feel like i have a purpose anymore. I cant even talk to anyone about how i feel except this group of people because noone can understand or care how i feel. I hate feeling like this and some people say it is because all of my fear is turning to anger. I just know that if i have to feel like this from now on, i can only pray that i will be able to join my husband.I dont want to bring anyone down and I hate to sound so negative but i have to have someone i can talk too. I certainly have found out who my true friends really are through this ordeal, and believe me their arent very many.My one friend that I have known for 25 years , the one I thought i could probably count on, doesnt even call to check on me. I know that just because my life is miserable , doesnt mean that everyone elses life shouldnt go on as normal, but it hurts to know that what you thought was a friend isnt a friend.Some days i feel like i am going to have a nervous breakdown, just because i cant stand feeling so mentally and sometimes physically bad. I used to exercise on a regular basis , now I very rarely go to the gym. I have just lost my will to do anything other than go to work.Even at work I find myself with too much free time , that is how i found this web site but it is probably a blessing i found you all. Please pray for me, as I will pray for you.