My husband Jerry just passed away on June 1, 2010. He was only 40. We were married for 18 years and together for 20. He was and always will be my best friend and soulmate. I don't know how I am supposed to get through each day. He is all I think about. All I do is cry, cry and then cry some more. I no longer have my Jerry. It was always Jerry and Kim now its just Kim. How do you keep pushing forward when all you can do is think of the past. The memories of the past 20 years are all I have left and it is so hard to even begin to think of a future without my husband.