This may sound some what like a Hallmark story but it is true , it does and it doesn't fit to what this topic is per say . My Sisters Birthday is nearing and I do think about it , of what I would have wanted to do and what we may have done . What restaurant to go to even if just to pick up something and talk and sit and share time . Hearing the her say "Why did you get me this" or " You should not spend your money " ,as she always never wanted anyone to do for her . She was the one always giving . I will not be able to do that , even to write a few words in a card to tell her I love her and then when I go over to hug her . Yet as I started the so called Hallmark Life everyone saw us living which was one that we made every day a holiday . Excited to talk to her on the phone if not to run over to see her. When not living in the same state we would talk almost everyday if not 2 or more ( our phone companies loved us ). Was this unusual , maybe for some ,yet now for us this is how it was from the the very beginning all our lives . We are not twins but so many swore we were . I never knew how they saw this for she had this beauty that surpassed what was what others saw on the outside , this love and kindness that you do not see often . This I only wished to have so to give more to her some day . Yet our holidays stopped , that fine week when taken to the hospital when we thought she would be coming home as she always did . No , she layed there as I laid beside her for 3 days as she slipped away .,unable to leave her side for a moment , unable to say that any of this was a holiday at all it was when all joy ended . She was the reason to look forward to things . For each day was a "Holiday with her " .. as gift in life of who she was .. This will never be again . For each day is just as before , sad and empty with out .
As I said it may not be something that can be believed but it is true , as life does give us a gift in life .
Time with those around us .
Did not know that the clock was going to stop before we had time to do all the many things we had hoped to do . Wish I had held on to each moment when they were there .
I believe we are all born with gifts. my sister was born to work with kids she was AMAZING with them. you could give her the shyest person in the whole world, and she would be able to get them to talk and have a conversation. she had the gift of connecting and bringing life to whom ever she was with. it was amazing to watch sometimes. I would like to think, that on some level of consciousness watching her pushed me in the same direction as I now work with kids and love it, I couldnt picture it any other way. even if it wasnt her influence, I like to think that it is. she was one to inspire and to be admired..I miss her so much.
Dear Elisa , I had to come back to the site because I thought I was stronger then I was but in reading what you share well not so much hence the name TEARS .. . Just seeing another feel about a Sister in a way with such pure love . Something I so miss . having my Sister here . just to hug her to tell her I love her is something I know I will never be able to do . Though in what you share I was able to take a pause from my tears and reflect on all the many gift my Sister had to offer from the day she was born . Ir is amazing isn't it that they had so much to offer this world and to us . As I see you do to in working with children a special gift that was given to few for it is the kind of heart and loving that I believe it is saved for. So how fortunate was your Sister to have you in her life . This gift of kindness has reached afar as many who come to this site seem to have to bring come to shattered hearts .
I thank you for this gift today though my heart is saddened by you pain and loss of your Sister .
May comfort come to you and to each today.
I believe we are all born with gifts. my sister was born to work with kids she was AMAZING with them. you could give her the shyest person in the whole world, and she would be able to get them to talk and have a conversation. she had the gift of connecting and bringing life to whom ever she was with. it was amazing to watch sometimes. I would like to think, that on some level of consciousness watching her pushed me in the same direction as I now work with kids and love it, I couldn't picture it any other way. even if it wasn't her influence, I like to think that it is. she was one to inspire and to be admired..I miss her so much.
I am coming up on my grandfather's birthday as well s their anniversary and I dread it every year. We have started a new tradition, though, of doing dream lanterns in their memory and I LOVE IT! It's so hard to lose loved ones. There's no easy way to move forward from that loss. You have to make the most of the memories that you have and live your life to the fullest - that's what they would want.