I just simply hate to sleep anymore. My husband and I were as he called us Night Owls, but, since his passing I can't sleep for fear of the dreams or he may come back and I might miss seeing him. I just have to wear myself out to finally sleep.
Dear Halfaheart, All of the grief and pain for one to bear just doesn't seem fair. I to have lost love ones. First my husband and 9 months later my daughter. My daughter was murdered by her x boy friend. Tonight has been a bad night even though it's been 1 year and 11 months since I lost my daughter. I to am on meds that was prescribed by the doctor. I take just enough to try and get some sleep.
Kelly, yeah it is extremely hard for me in the dark. What I left out of my post is that not only did Bill die suddenly, he died on my bed, in my arms from a Pulmonary embolism (blood clot to the lungs). When the paramedics got there I went to call a friend of ours. As I walked back into my room I watched him throw up on my bed (which happens sometimes when you do CPR on someone). Once they got him off the bed, they worked him on the floor, next to the wall, at the foot of my bed. Sleep is very hard for me. I don't sleep in my bed unless it's daylight out (thank God I work til 2 in the morning)...I do sleep on my sofa alot, with the lights on. Even then, it's for 2 hour spurts at a time.
Thanks for your response. I do appreciate it. I agree, we do replay things in our heads. For me it's day and night...
It is as I sit here,2:09 a.m. and I can't sleep.I feel so blessed to have found this site to be able to come here and chat._____________Tresa,I know about that wearing oneself out....do you have any letters or notes and cards you have saved from him?...try reading thru them.Even a good healthy cry will get you tired enough to sleep.
I would like to add a Prayer for my cousin's husband,Vances.He was just diagnosed with stage 4 lymphnodes cancer and was givin 5/6 months.________He is so sick.
I will miss him so much.God Bless You Vances.
Tresa Sampson said:I just simply hate to sleep anymore. My husband and I were as he called us Night Owls, but, since his passing I can't sleep for fear of the dreams or he may come back and I might miss seeing him. I just have to wear myself out to finally sleep.
hi everyone i find comfort from reading all your posts and im awfully sorry for your loses,im 28 single child my dad died 2yrs ago and ive still not got over it,i wont sleep in my room and i sleep downstairs in living room with mum she sleeps couch me the single bed i wanna get back to my bed but its been nearly 3 yrs i just cant b on my own and i worry about mum so much im up now 2.30am wide awake hte it so much will it ever get better i sleep with lights on to and normally sit up till 4 or 5 am mum can sleep within 2mins but im wide awake all timexxx