My dad died due to cancer on 27 feb 2010. I thought I was doing better but his birthday is this saturday,21st august and i feel like i am losing it. I am 23-years-old and am trying my best to get through this but i couldn't even get out of bed this Monday. I have been having moodswings the past few days and crying spells. I am dreading Saturday, it is just sitting there, like a huge ball of pain waiting for me. It is just too painful.How do i get through this? Please give me some words of wisdom to make it through this day. is it always going to be like this on his birthday?Thank you