This is an overwhelming experience. How do people get to the point of being ok again? I have great respect for those that have gone thru this. I can't describe in words what i feel. I hope and pray i see my brother and all my loved ones again up in heaven.
Well it's been four weeks since the sudden passing of my brother and i know i can never be the same. I do feel less intensity of pain, however my sadness and sense off loss is more real now. I find comfort in two things: 1. that he is out of his downward spiral and free of pain and 2. of the many treasured memories that i can never and will never let go of.
Jean I am sorry for your loss as well. I'm glad you too have found some comfort. Its been a little over seven weeks since my brother passed away. He was a heroin/methadone addict so my grief seems to be complex. We had a very close, yet strained, relationship and i often feel very guilty about the strained aspects of our relationship. Do i blame him for the acts of betrayal he caused to our family(stealing TV's and money from us etc.)? If so i feel terrible. Was it the disease's fault? Ahhh the anguish. At the end of the day, though, he is gone and i miss the good times we had (he was semi-recovered and we had a great last year). The pain of this fact is so much more real now that my shock is tapering off. I have good hours, but mostly bad days and i dont know how this will pass. All i can do is look up and pray.