Di, sorry for your loss and regrets. It seems we all have regrets that we could have done more. I tried hard to get my bro off drugs, and i regret terribly the last few phone conversations we had where i was frustrated and short with him. But 2 phone calls doesn't compare to an entire lifetime of mutual love. We loved each other despite ups and downs, as I'm sure your sister and you did too. None of us is perfect and we get only one chance here to do it right. Don't beat yourself up, as I'm sure your sis would hate if you did that. We all are heading to that peaceful place where our loved ones are now. I'm just going to patiently wait till that time comes and try to enjoy the rest of my life.
Cindy, sorry for your loss. I lost my brother 2 1/2 months ago. I cried every day for 2 months, now i block it out and can cry every three days or so. I carry a picture of us as kids in my wallet, and i cherish all the good memories every day. I was feeling regret for not spending more time with him, but am realizing that he would hate that i was depressed and would give me a good kick in the rear. So for him, to honor him, i try to stay positive.
hank, i lost my younger brother four and a half months ago. he died very unexpectedly of a massive heart attack while on a hunting trip. he was in his tree stand when he was found by his hunting partner. i am some comforted that he was doing his favorite thing but if he had been at work at the university of alabama in birmingham, alabama, he might could have been saved. but would he have been sick and weak for the rest of his life. i have so many thoughts that i have about driven myself crazy. i worry about my mom of course. i am working like a true workaholic because it seems to be diversion. everyone says focus on the ones who are living whom you love and i do try to do just that. my husband of 37 years walked out on me after my brother had been dead for only two months. he really picked a wonderful time. let's kick her when she's down i guess. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. but i miss my brother sooooo much. i physically hurt sometimes. i have problems sleeping, crazy dreams, can't remember anything, can't think straight. i am a mess. but i am still keeping on keeping on. i am determined to do well for my brother and in spite of my husbands cruelty. we will be okay we just must work at it like it is a job. crazy, huh?
I lost my oldest and only brother on May 31, 2009. His son and I found him dead in his car on my driveway. He was only 43, he had a stroke... the shock of seeing him dead, touching him.... I can not get that out of my head.... I miss him terribly..... I feel so empty inside. What makes this sooo much worse is that at the time I was mad at him I we had not spoken in 3 months..... the remourse I feel along with the guilt and the shame is unberable. My monther is 80 years old.... I know she has it the hardest.... I can not imagine what she is going thru losing a child has to be devatating.....
I have this great overwhelming sadness...I love you brother!!! I never told him that..... But I did/do LOVE MY BRTOHER!!!