I know it is hard. But I do voluteer in my 6 year olds school. I am a youth leader at church which my 16 year old is part of. While my husband was alive he was my biggest supporter in doing this work. We have tried to teach our children to give back to others who have had it harder than us. Barry and my saying we learned to live by was "no matter how bad you have it there is someone that has it worse than you. " I know when you lose a spouse you think how can it be worse than that. But I have to look at the great love and respect Barry and I had for each other. I know there are people who have never found that great love. If I can help make youth understand what it is like to find someone who will love them and respect them and have a great life together then I have reached out and put a smile on Gods face.
So doing for others will be a great reward. Sometimes I just want to hide and stay home. But when I seee the smiles on peoples face when I do this it brings a warm touch to my heart.
On Christmas morning take a minute and think about that little girl and the big smile she will have on your face when she opens that coat.
I am not so sure I'm recovering that fast.We had a huge Memorial Celabration on Sunday and I must say,I have backtracked.Seeing so many people made me feel very vulnerable again.I am working on regaining "normal"whatever that may turn out to be.You go forward 2 steps and back 3,sometimes.It's a slow,painful process and there are days when Life really is pretty bad.I still don't believe it after almost 3 months!.Maybe I never will.Just have to hang in there,i guess.
Baby steps,,,,some forward,,,,some back. I make lists of things I should do, need to do. Then when I'm feeling up to it I tackle something. Sometimes days go by without even looking at the list. Sometimes it's all I can do to get dressed and go to work and make it back home. But when I can cross something off the list I feel better. Still can't get the safe open, still fighting with life insurance co and credit card companies. Am going to make soup for some friends tomorrow. Baby steps.