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Hi there, I am having a very hard time coping with losing my mother lately. I lost her on Jan. 7th 2010. She was only 58 yrs old...I have many questions on why she passed away on top of my grief. She had brain and lung cancer and had just gotten off her last bit of brain radiation she could have. She wanted to keep taking chemo for her lungs. But the doctor told her he didn't see much point if it didn't help her brain. I found that disturbing really. But it's not only that there are questions about how much medication she was given by my father the night she passed. My mother was not bed ridden she was 100% with it. And I still find it so hard to buy that she just passed like she did so quickly. So, I am dealing with all of that on top of losing her. I just wish I could have been there for her more. I was stuck in my state (5 hours away from her), due to my child custody order. So, I was unable to be with her as much as I would like. And I really believe sometime if I had been there to take care of her instead of my father she would have been better off. I just feel like I failed her after how long she took care of me. I am sorry for my grammar ahead of time I am very upset. i wake up everyday and for just a second I still think shes alive (anyone else do that?). I think I really need to call her. And then I realize it's not real and she's gone and there's nothing I can do about it. I felt like I should type something out to someone to try to get some of this out. And most of you seem to understand some of what I am going through. Thank you for reading if you got this far. I'm sorry for all of your loses and I hope things get better for you. (and me)
Rose.
Rose:
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I know the pain you feel, and I could feel it in your words. I'm so very sorry. My mother had pancreatic cancer, and she passed away as a result of it in July of last year. She was only 63. It hurts really bad. I still cry, and our bond was so strong, I just miss her everyday. How can you feel when someone so important who's been a part of your life, and there for you for ALL of your life is suddenly gone? Please just take time to feel anyway that you need to feel for as long as you need to feel that way. The only things that have been making me feel better so far is talking about it and crying. The weight of the pain is still incredilby overwhelming. We're mourning a lot. We've lost our mothers, and inside of that, we've lost in most cases a friend, a listener, an advice giver, someone who has our best interests in heart, and so much more. Let me know if you ever need to talk. (Hugs, love, and strength to you)
Rose said:Hi there, I am having a very hard time coping with losing my mother lately. I lost her on Jan. 7th 2010. She was only 58 yrs old...I have many questions on why she passed away on top of my grief. She had brain and lung cancer and had just gotten off her last bit of brain radiation she could have. She wanted to keep taking chemo for her lungs. But the doctor told her he didn't see much point if it didn't help her brain. I found that disturbing really. But it's not only that there are questions about how much medication she was given by my father the night she passed. My mother was not bed ridden she was 100% with it. And I still find it so hard to buy that she just passed like she did so quickly. So, I am dealing with all of that on top of losing her. I just wish I could have been there for her more. I was stuck in my state (5 hours away from her), due to my child custody order. So, I was unable to be with her as much as I would like. And I really believe sometime if I had been there to take care of her instead of my father she would have been better off. I just feel like I failed her after how long she took care of me. I am sorry for my grammar ahead of time I am very upset. i wake up everyday and for just a second I still think shes alive (anyone else do that?). I think I really need to call her. And then I realize it's not real and she's gone and there's nothing I can do about it. I felt like I should type something out to someone to try to get some of this out. And most of you seem to understand some of what I am going through. Thank you for reading if you got this far. I'm sorry for all of your loses and I hope things get better for you. (and me)
Rose.
I lost my Mom on 9/26/2008,she died of cancer in the gall badder,small intestine and lung. She never smoked or had a drink. She didn't allow smoking around her. It's hard on me and my brothers and sisters. My older brother and next to the youngest sister. Won't visit the website that I dedicated in her memory. I was very close to my mom, we talked all hours on the day. I mean from 4 in the morning until late at night everyday. My job works me all hours of the day and night. My mom was the one that kept me going. I cry everyday for my mom. My boyfriend don't understand his mom is still here. And my mom isn't I have an empty place in my heart for my mom.I smelled her scarf and broke down and cried. My boyfriend she's in a better place and she wouldn't want me to cry and be depressed like I am. But he don't understand I losted someone very dear to my heart. The one person I could tell anything to, and get the best advice. I still don't understand why she's gone, my heart can't accept the lost and pain. Everyone she's in time it will get easlier. I can't she how that is possible, and now Mother's Day in approaching. Thanksgiving and Christmas was very hard. Me and my sister's messed up both dinners. How do we cope with the lost of our mother without feeling the pain and hurt of knowing that we can't see and talk to her again. The house is so cold and plain that we don't even go by there anymore. She was our mother and father we losted both when we losted her.
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Rose:
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I know the pain you feel, and I could feel it in your words. I'm so very sorry. My mother had pancreatic cancer, and she passed away as a result of it in July of last year. She was only 63. It hurts really bad. I still cry, and our bond was so strong, I just miss her everyday. How can you feel when someone so important who's been a part of your life, and there for you for ALL of your life is suddenly gone? Please just take time to feel anyway that you need to feel for as long as you need to feel that way. The only things that have been making me feel better so far is talking about it and crying. The weight of the pain is still incredilby overwhelming. We're mourning a lot. We've lost our mothers, and inside of that, we've lost in most cases a friend, a listener, an advice giver, someone who has our best interests in heart, and so much more. Let me know if you ever need to talk. (Hugs, love, and strength to you)
Rose said:Hi there, I am having a very hard time coping with losing my mother lately. I lost her on Jan. 7th 2010. She was only 58 yrs old...I have many questions on why she passed away on top of my grief. She had brain and lung cancer and had just gotten off her last bit of brain radiation she could have. She wanted to keep taking chemo for her lungs. But the doctor told her he didn't see much point if it didn't help her brain. I found that disturbing really. But it's not only that there are questions about how much medication she was given by my father the night she passed. My mother was not bed ridden she was 100% with it. And I still find it so hard to buy that she just passed like she did so quickly. So, I am dealing with all of that on top of losing her. I just wish I could have been there for her more. I was stuck in my state (5 hours away from her), due to my child custody order. So, I was unable to be with her as much as I would like. And I really believe sometime if I had been there to take care of her instead of my father she would have been better off. I just feel like I failed her after how long she took care of me. I am sorry for my grammar ahead of time I am very upset. i wake up everyday and for just a second I still think shes alive (anyone else do that?). I think I really need to call her. And then I realize it's not real and she's gone and there's nothing I can do about it. I felt like I should type something out to someone to try to get some of this out. And most of you seem to understand some of what I am going through. Thank you for reading if you got this far. I'm sorry for all of your loses and I hope things get better for you. (and me)
Rose.
Felicia said:Rose:
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I know the pain you feel, and I could feel it in your words. I'm so very sorry. My mother had pancreatic cancer, and she passed away as a result of it in July of last year. She was only 63. It hurts really bad. I still cry, and our bond was so strong, I just miss her everyday. How can you feel when someone so important who's been a part of your life, and there for you for ALL of your life is suddenly gone? Please just take time to feel anyway that you need to feel for as long as you need to feel that way. The only things that have been making me feel better so far is talking about it and crying. The weight of the pain is still incredilby overwhelming. We're mourning a lot. We've lost our mothers, and inside of that, we've lost in most cases a friend, a listener, an advice giver, someone who has our best interests in heart, and so much more. Let me know if you ever need to talk. (Hugs, love, and strength to you)
Rose said:Hi there, I am having a very hard time coping with losing my mother lately. I lost her on Jan. 7th 2010. She was only 58 yrs old...I have many questions on why she passed away on top of my grief. She had brain and lung cancer and had just gotten off her last bit of brain radiation she could have. She wanted to keep taking chemo for her lungs. But the doctor told her he didn't see much point if it didn't help her brain. I found that disturbing really. But it's not only that there are questions about how much medication she was given by my father the night she passed. My mother was not bed ridden she was 100% with it. And I still find it so hard to buy that she just passed like she did so quickly. So, I am dealing with all of that on top of losing her. I just wish I could have been there for her more. I was stuck in my state (5 hours away from her), due to my child custody order. So, I was unable to be with her as much as I would like. And I really believe sometime if I had been there to take care of her instead of my father she would have been better off. I just feel like I failed her after how long she took care of me. I am sorry for my grammar ahead of time I am very upset. i wake up everyday and for just a second I still think shes alive (anyone else do that?). I think I really need to call her. And then I realize it's not real and she's gone and there's nothing I can do about it. I felt like I should type something out to someone to try to get some of this out. And most of you seem to understand some of what I am going through. Thank you for reading if you got this far. I'm sorry for all of your loses and I hope things get better for you. (and me)
Rose.
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