I truly hope this group will be good for me , I don't understand why anything I do makes me sad without him, even something as stupid as staining the deck, making the decision for the color, watching the eclipse, just every day normal stuff
Deborah....I'm sorry for your loss, more so because this is the second time you've had to experience this loss. I lost my husband in Jan 2016 at the age of 52. We were married 27 years and together a total of 30. Even now I have what I call "the guilt of living" It's better now but in the beginning I couldn't do anything without feeling guilty about it. Something as simple as taking a shower and I would think "what right do I have to do this when Ken can't". Same with eating a meal, going to work etc. Even yesterday watching eclipse, I was thinking of him and wishing he could have experienced it with me. What you're feeling is normal. Our spouses were such an intricate part of our lives that without them, we're lost and nothing makes sense. For me, I didn't realize there was such a thing as feeling normal until I lost him. I hope you'll be able to find some comfort in our group.
I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my wife of 23 years October 2015, she was 43. You have found a place with people who understand what you are going thru because we have been there. I have found that reading the encouragement between members has helped me alot. You are welcome here and there are people reading posts almost all the time.
Welcome to the group. I lost my wife in 2010 and this group is what helped me deal with my loss the best. Everyone here has experienced what you have experienced and will be here to listen and give support.