Hi, I'm desperately looking for someone to talk to. My son Bobby commited suicide on Oct. 5, 2010. He did not leave a note or anything. He had called his friends mom 3 times and she never called the police and by then it was too late. I live a good distance away and had not talked to him at all that day. We had talked everyday up until the day of. I tried to call, but I assumed he was working because he had been working alot of overtime and on second shift. I had no idea what was on his mind. But I keep blaming her because she knew what he was trying to do and did nothing to try and stop him. This has to be normal. I find myself lost and confused alot of the time and it is hard to keep my job, I dont know if I am losing my mind or what. Someone please tell me this is normal.
My sister died by suicide so my mom said she understands what you are going through
Sharon - I am so sorry for you and know what you are going through. My daughter committed suicide on March 22nd - and still I have not had a single day that I haven't cried anywhere from one hour to 8 hours...I have never felt pain like this in my entire life - I love her so much as you do your son. I can only say that I am still here and with the help from others on this site, I am trying to understand that she was in pain and thought this was the only way. I am medicated by my doctor and have never been one to do that sort of thing - but was sitting at my desk crying all day and could not function. At least, I can get through most of the day now - my daughter called her boyfriend for help - and when he didn't show up, I guess she decided there was no reason to go on. We all love her so much - but that was not her thought at that one moment in time - she wanted his help and it wasn't given. At least now I am trying to know that I will see her again some day and she will help me cross when my time is done - I look forward to that. You are completely normal - DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO MAKE IT THRU THE DAY - I used to text my daughter all the time - and I still do that - it goes to the blue nowhere but it is like I am filling her in on my day - I sleep with one of her shirts and spray it with her perfume - I have her pillow that she last laid on...and I don't think any of this is crazy - I will always love her and do what it takes to help me cope. You must do the same .
i also loss my son Frankie on 12-28-08 and it feels like it happed 2day the pain is unbearable the days are hurtfull and the nights r worse..my baby was 17yrs old, and he was my world. i understand when u say that u will never be the same again... am very sad and nothing seems great...why did my baby do this...whyyyyyyyyyy t