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My only son died Aug 2008 after he drowned after his car went over a bridge and crashed upside down and he was trapped. I will never get over this or understand it. He was the happiest person in the world. I have never loved anyone as I loved him. I also am getting pysh. help but I don't know if it is working either. It is the constant feeling of doom that overtakes me and regret that he died so cold and alone. I hate getting up in the morning and having to face it all over again. IT IS ALWAYS THERE. I have spurts of mania when I just can't sit down, but sometimes all I do is sit and stare. I have a daughter but she is far away and has alot of her own grief to deal with.At least I talk to her every day.
Carol, Brad, and all, I hope someday our hearts will heal, even just a tiny bit.
Thanks, Sue...Proud Mom of Josh
Brad, I am so sorry for the lose of your daughter Cara, she was so young.Your baby girl is definately with the Lord and looking down on her dad. It is wonderful though that you, as her father,can come here to this site and express your feeling of grief and love for her. We mostly have grieving moms posting their stories of loosing their children. I am sure you thank God everyday for sparing the life of your son. Be sure to express your love for him everyday as we never know if that day will our last. I lost my son and only child 09/08/09 , he was killed by a drunk driver. My consulation is, his last words to me. I love you. I hold that in my heart until I see him again. My prayers go out to you and your family.Hi carol.Omg soooo sorry 2 have just read that.My heart is in prayer 4 u.I 2 know how it feels, i lost my little girl in a tragic car accident 3 29 2009.My son also was in the car but he made it, barley , he was the last child 2 leave the hospital.7 people in that car were involved 3 died.I have so much pain its unbearable.Please if u ever wana talk let me know and i would like 2 talk 2 u.Thank u.My daughters name is Cara Peters...Carebear im her father Brad Peters.She was 12 years old when our Lord took her.
In 1999 my only daughter was diagnosed with Acute Mylogenous Leukemia. This is a terrible disease. She underwent 4 highdose chemotherapies and an autologous stem cell transplant over 9 1/2 months. The pain she went through is indecribable. She lost her hair twice, her skin peeled off as if from a sunburn, her finger and toe nails fell off as well as the bottoms of here feet. She went into remission in Sept. 2000. She suffered numerous afflictions in the years after that finally dieing in her sleep in January, 2007 from heart trouble. The doctors said it was probably the result of all the chemicals that were pumped into her as AML treatment. Doctors all down the line after her discharge from the Naval Hospital in San Diego, dropped the ball with misdiagnosis', wrong treatments, over medications and simple stupidity. She had 18 hospitalizations in 2 years and 4 surgeries. I prayed that I could undergo the pain she indured instead of her. To this day, I think that if I had been a better mother, she would not have suffered so much. It will be 3 years in January since she was buried and I still cry every day. I am now seeing a psychologist and attending a support group but I don't know if it is helping any. I just found this support site and maybe it will help to read about others loses. I don't know.
I really don't know how to tallk about coping with the loss of a child because I am not coping. I am a train wreck. My son Jason was killed on Vanentine's day this year one month to the day after my mother passed away, and 8 days before I found my brother dead in his house. I can't even think about my mom or brother because the death of my baby son has taken control of my life. I don't leave the house unless I have to, I sit in the chair and look out the door and don't get anything done most days. I cry everyday sometimes all day. Jason had been very ill before he was killed in a car wreck,in fact he had just got out of the hospital the day before his death.He went in the hospital Dec2, 2008 and was in there all but 8 days until Feb13th 2009. He had 9 brain surgeries and spent most of the time in neuroICU. I thought things were really bad while he was in there and everyday I worried we might lose him and that went on and on. I prayed the day he was discharged that the last surg.was going to make him well.The day he was killed he had gone to where his wife works to take her Valentine goodies. On his way home a 18 wheeler started to move over on him he lost control of his suv was ejected out the drivers window hit a guard rail and landed in the grass with his shoes sitting in the middle of the interstate the suv cont.moving crossed over 5 lanes hit a concret wall and stopped. Jason had a friend with him and his friend's 5 yo son both were unhurt by the grace of God. My baby was taken to the hosp. rec. over 40 units of blood and died 3 and a half hours after the acciddent. The driver of the 18 wheeler never slowed down. So here I am feeling just as bad if not worse as I did the day he was killed.
Tomorrow is the sixth anniversary of the passing of our 17 year old daughter. I thought by now the pain and sadness would ease more than it has. Although I am fortunate to have a large family, who are their to listen and help, I have always found it difficult to express my grief to them (I don't want to upset them). I have taken part in every support group available and have even facilitated a grief support group for parents through my church. The best I can do is pray for inner peace.