My name is Barbara and  I just lost my graddaughter Lily who was only 7 months old and I am trying to deal with it. I have days that I just cry and miss her so much. she was born with Dandy Walker and had 9 surgeries and was doing great, the doctors said they belived she would live a full life, but sadly on 11/22/2010, she stopped breathing and the CPR was not working on her. My son and the doctors tried everything, but she did not make it. Mom is not doing good, and my Son is holding on, but holds it all in. I am at a loss. Lily has an older sister who is 4yrs old and she has been spending a lot of time with me. That seems to really help me. But I am just at a loss and I am not thinking correctly at work and making mistakes or leaving my keys and I just do not want to do anything. I do not even want to do Christmas this year. I had already bought Lily some gifts and now i do not know what to do with them. I am waiting to get some sign from her to let me know that she is doing well, but I have not really had any signs or maybe I am missing them. I have lost my dad, my mother in law who was my best friend and many others, but Lily's death is the hardest. I just do not know how to feel.

RIP Lily Ann Shepard-Spaulding 04/28/2010-11//22/2010
Grandma Loves you and misses you.