Hi, My name is Tric and I just came across this site. My husband died in Jan. 09, and I could relate to so much that has been said. I feel that I lost more than just a best friend. I feel that in so many ways I have lost myself, and that I need to find out who I really am. My life was so connected to my husband, we did so much together. Our youngest daughter had just graduated from High School, and we were empty nesters for about 5 months, we were so happy together. After he passed away, I felt that I was in a time warp for several months, with the world just spinning past me, and I wasn't sure how I was going to get back on. I have been so grateful for the support that I have recieved, but you really do feel so alone. My mom passed away exactly 6 months to the day that my husband passed, and it was hard, but not like loosing a spouse. My heart goes out to all of you, and it is good to have a reminder that I am not alone in this. I have been very blessed by our saviors love. It will be our 25th anniversary this next month, and I want to be able to say that it has been a wonderful 25 years. I miss him so much, and I am not sure if the tears are going to stop. But I do cherish the time we had together, and look forward to the time when we will be together again. thanks for letting me share.