I am so sorry for your loss...and pray you find comfort in your road of grief.
Thank you so much for you kind words. I am on medications - antidepressants,
very mild tranquilizer which I take in the morning only (usually), and I do take
benadryl at night to help me sleep. Hope to talk to you again here.
Hi Wendela - I was with my husband 22 years/married 17. It does get easier I will promise you that. You will never be "over it" I can promise you that as well. I remember the funeral director told me that it takes at least two years to be "normal" after losing a spouse. Well, what's normal? I had no mortgage when he died...had to re-fi three times and now I am in foreclosure. Long story...can't go there now but I pray that you just sit yourself down, strap yourself in, and prepare for the ride...
it's quite a rollercoaster. If you fight it, which I'm sure everyone does now and then, it makes it harder.
You will have good days and then, without any warning, you will be brought to our knees sobbing.
It is part of life but it is just so hard. My husband was an alcoholic. There were so many negative issues to say the least...but I found him dead one morning in the living room. I will never get that out of my head. 911 was making me do CPR via phone before they got there and I already knew he was dead. It was just horrible. No, we never get over it. We just plod along and find happy memories to replace the pain.
Can't sleep - I'm in NJ and it's 3:20am. Take care and keep in touch. Good luck with your service and I hope things aren't too bad.
I keep dreaming (not every night but i have it quite often)that we are all in the living room and just talking me and our daughters and friends and Gene walk thru the front door and says"sorry im late babe, but im home", It isnt a bad dream it is just weird it seems so real I will wake up and of course he's not there and i will cry myself to sleep. My Gene has only been gone a year and as far as sleeping i havent had a good nights sleep since he died, but your dream is bad and scaring you and maybe a professional can help I will be praying for you. God Bless
Ugh....I have felt many times when I'm awake his spirit is with me. But I can honestly say that in almost 5 years I have never had a good dream. It is always sad. However, I can also say that I feel the house I live in is evil. It was my grandparent's house and then my uncle's and I inherited it. I wanted to just sell it and buy a house in the town I was from but my husband made me stay here.
Since we moved here 9 years ago, bad things have happened one after another.
So now I am in foreclosure and I am just ready to take my animals and belongings and move the Hell out. SOMEONE doesn't want me here and didn't want my husband here either. I can't help but think the bad vibes here are adding to the bad dreams. I hate living here. I just hate it.
Sorry for your loss.... :( Wish I had words of wisdom. But things are so crappy with me I am fighting to get thru each day.
Wow thank you! I never thought of it that way!!!!!!