Hi friends, it was 14 months ago today that my best friend left to go to heaven. Yes, I miss him, I want him back with me to hold my hand, talk to me, give me the strength he always did...but....I know I can't have him back here with me, but everyday, every moment Brad is with me, holding my hand, talking to me and he is giving me strength to go on. Today I did a lot of thinking and I am so thankful that I had that time with him, we had a "fairy tale" life, together 24/7/365 and yes while I do miss that, I thank him for the time we had together and I truly believe that one day we will be together holding hands again.When the day comes for me to go to heaven I know he will be standing there waiting for me. Until then all I can do is be positive for him, he gave me so much, this is the least I can do for him. I didn't think I'd make it this far, and there are days when I don't think I can go on, but then I find that I can go on and make him proud of me. It was a sad day today but I thank all of you who hold me up when I'm ready to fall down. Just had to get this out. Hugs and love to all of you, my friends!
P.S. I know Brad has sent each and everyone to me!!
Hello Barb, we all want our spouses back, but we will have to wait for the time when our Lord says it is to be . I do believe that my wife would not want me to stay home and sulk. I know she would want me to be strong and help out our children raising their kids. We always talked about taking care of my elderly mother and aunt, and thats what has been keeping me busy. In the past few weeks this has been a major effort for me, and I have felt guilty because I have not had time to grieve. I just hope I can keep it toghter with the holidays coming up, and soon after the first anniversery of my dear wifes passing. I am sure this site will be busy at that time, glad that there is somewhere where we can try to help each other.
I have been thinking of you all day. I know how hard it is. Yesterday was 41 years ago that Larry and I met, tomorrow is Larry's birthday, Friday is mine, and Saturday is 14 months that he is gone and 40 years that we were engaged. I have been in a fog the last 10 days or so. I can't seem to get my act together. I just kind of mope around the house and don't really want to seem to do anything. I have to get my act together, this is not good. It is Thanksgiving this weekend so all the family will be around. Maybe I can pull out of my funk then. Anyway, just wanted to say hi and send you big hugs. Take care.
barb: yes brad is and will always be with you. maybe in spirit only he knows you got a new job and meeting new people. be strong for him and you will succed in everything you do. i am sure brad is saying that is my girl barb i am very proud of her good luck with your job