I lost my husband in April of this year. He had cancer for almost 3 years and it was very hard on both of us. We were married for 18 years and I miss him every hour of every day. I never knew there could be such pain but there is and somedays its bearable and most days not. I go through the motions of everyday life but, well you know. If I hadnt have been looking at the Obituaries for the loss of another friend I wouldn not have found this site. Thanks. My sleeping is way off and here I am at midnight up after sleeping for four hours, oh I dont know what I am doing half of the time anymore, just seem to go through the motions. Yes they say it gets better but I dont know. Thanks for reading, or listening.