Hi Drue. My loss is also new. My hubby passed away Juny 27th, 2009, one week shy of our 9 month anniversary. We were an older couple, me being 54 and he being 56. My hubby had only been sick that we knew about for less than two months. I had him cremated and I talk to him everyday. He is on my mantle beside a picture of him. I talk and I cry. I sleep with a photo album of pictures of him at night. You are not alone. I talk to my hubbie's mom and triplet brother about once a week. They are not local.
My loss is also new. I am a 31 year old mother.I lost my huband age 32,in April 2009. We were married just a few months away from our 10th anniversary. He was killed in an auto accident. He was the most wonderful man to me. He was a great husband and daddy. We have two precious small children. They are what keeps me going.
Interestingly, I lost my husband, Caleb, on July 4, 2008, a day shy of a year prior to your loss. I was 35 years old when he died, right in front of me. He was riding a motorcycle and collided head-on with an SUV. I was 2 seconds behind him on my own bike. He was 36. We were 3 months shy of our 10th anniversary. He was my everything. My life became an empty shell when he left. Were it not for the strength, support and love of family and friends after he passed, I think I might have died too.
It will get better, but it will never be the same. We are forever changed by these events. Yet those of us who remain have to put one foot in front of the other. Our loved ones are in a better place. We have work to do. Some days, all I can do is sit and tell myself I'm okay. And you know what? That's okay. Don't try to deal with everything at once. Life bombards you, yes. But you can do this.