My name is Tom.
I noticed the date of janurary 9th above.
My wife died December 9th 2009. Her cancer came back and this time it was terminal. The depression you are feeling can and will take on many forms, as I am finding out for myself. I have to tell you though that I am going get past this.
I know that my wife does not want me to be feeling this way. As hard as it will be I am going to start feeling better. I trust that you feel that your wife would want you to do the same. I don't know how yet, but I'll make it. I made two promises to my wife before she died. One is that I'll finish fixing-up the house, and that I will take care of our 12 cats. And myself. Not in any perticular order.
Now here's my story just for you ! The one day my wife Loni came out of unconsciousness while in the hospital and was so alert but could not talk, she took my hand to her mouth, I thought she was going to kiss my hand, instead she put my finger in her mouth and bit it hard, then smiled at me. It made me laugh so hard. She really loved me. Our cats would do that to her all the time and I know that was what she was doing to me. It was a way to show affection when she could not talk. I was a part of my wifes life when she needed ME the most. The final part. My life has to find it's way again. And I can still feel that bite, and it makes me smile ! Tom
There's more to this story, but for now this is the important part.