It has been 22 months today since i lost my husband. He was the love of my life. We had been together almost 24 years when he passed away. I have two sons 6 and 15. I took them to florida this past week. I can't take being at home for hoildays any more. I miss him everyday and wish he was here. We had a great marriage. We never fought and talked things out and decided together about the warfare of our children. People do not know what we feel inside everyday. I am heart broken and still cry. I wish I could turn back the hands of time and have him with me. Sometimes I still can't believe he is gone. My kids miss him so much. I dont think I will ever be the same happy person I was before. Days I put on my happy face and face the world.