Well today is 8 months since my Larry passed away and 19 years for his Dad. My mother-in-law made her usual morning call to me. Does she remember either one? NO. I can't believe that she is so self centered and oblivious. I don't know what I expected...she never remembered Larry's birthday for the past 10 years and he is her only child.
Today winter has made one last return for the season...we are getting a snow storm. I don't expect anyone to come over today so I am staying in my pajamas and going to go watch movies on Larry's big screen TV. Something I haven't done since he passed. I'll probably watch his video that was played at his funeral too. I'll cry, but it also brings back lots of good memories of times we spent together. I don't want to do anything else today. I am tired of putting on the brave front. Today I will allow myself to feel sorry for myself. I know I shouldn't, but that is how I feel today. Tomorrow I will get back to the routine and do things I should be doing today. But today I feel like to h*ll with everything. I don't want to do it.
Take care Yvonne