Sandy from Wyo. May you all be blessed with Peace on this Mothers Day. My sweetheart passed Feb 2010. I don't even want to say date sends my mind to that night. He passed on our annversary in a Veterans Hospital. I am still very angry at them and the way were treated for 3 years of fighting to his death with them. But it has been suggested to me to put that on the back burner for now until I regain strength emotionally and physically. Brings me to a question? Did anyone get horribly ill do to the greiving. I do have deseases but I know the difference. Friend took me doctor for first time since the other day. Young male doc. Gave me new anti deppresant. Hope it helps. Thanks for listening Im very grateful I found this site. Sorry about spelling can't think straight. As far as holidays still right now anyway my husband was sick for so long I dont remember or I don't want to the sweet special times on those special days. I'm sure that will come when I hit bottom of reality. There are so many memories 40 years. I want so bad to remember them all. Sorry I am going on and on.