still trying to figure out how to work this site. i think im in the right place to respond to every1 thank you all so much 4 responding to me.one of the questions was how old are my kids well they are -24-girl, 22-boy, 17-boy, 16-boy, 14-girl, 14-boy, 13-girl, and 12-girl. even though the ones are grown age the mind isnt so grown.most of my kids have learning disabilities and they had all started to do really well b4 we lost my husband-Jerry- but now its like they are giving up. i dont blame them as i feel the same way but i keep trying to remind them how important it was to their dad to keep their grades up so they can finish school. and i keep telling them you know daddy is watching you and he wants you to do well so lets make him proud.sometimes it works and sometimes not. what happened to him was we were on our way home he was on his motorcycle and i was following him in the car.he got too far ahead of me and i couldn't see his tail light anymore it was late and really dark. he had a mild heart attack while riding and i didnt see the accident but drove the 3&1/2 miles home and when i didnt see his bike went back to look for him. i found him. his heart was still beating but the injuries he sustained in the accident were too traumatic.i just kept talking to him and telling him to hold on and that i love him and the kids were at home waiting on him and they love him too. and not to leave me,but it was his time.when the officer drug me away for the last time and put me in the car he ask me 5 questions;whats his full name,i told him.whats his date of birth,i told him.whats his address,i told him.how do you know him,i said he's my husband! and the last question he asked me is whats your name at the same time i watched them cover him with that white sheet.i couldnt tell him my name i just lost it!my life as i knew it was over forever.