Hello again Hurting, I know the feeling when you just sit there and every moment has a split second when we expect our soulmates to came through the door and every room has its memories. I sit in silence letting the memories caming to life, it unfolds infront of me. In the mornings we always worked together getting the kids ready and in the evenings we always had a night chat. I do cry at nights and in the mornings a little but it giving me sometimes really bad headaches. Mine is the 25 and on Thursdays. My world became a great big tear bubble. I love the memories in the house the happy ones. YOU are totally correct our lives will never be the same ever but I think we are blessed because I met so many peopel who never experienced what we did, BEING IN LOVE AND BECAMING ONE HEART! So many people seek their soulmate and at least we have found them. I started to hang huge big pictures of my husband Fernando around the house so I can talk with him everywhere. Why don't you do something similar?
With lots of hugs
My husband also left me on a Wednesday,Dec 9, 2009 at 10:10 am. He also did not get the chance to say goodbye but did tell me during the night that he loved me. Like you my world has fallen apart and every day just gets harder as time goes by. People say half of you dies with them but I feel it is more like 80%. The empty bed, the lonely house and every little thing in it reminds me of him. Life will never be the same again but I just hope one day I can wake in the morning without dread of another day ahead without him.