I just want to thank each and everyone of you that reads my post. That share your pain with me and empathize with my pain. Till I came on this site I was in a shell shock state trying to understand what happened. Why & How? There was no one who could understand me and what I was going through. My brother-in-law (husband's brother) and his wife came to visit me one day and asked me that don't I get bored staying home all day? And I thought what kind of a stupid question is it? Was I staying and sunning in my backyard doing nothing. They don't even get it. If I lost my husband, wasn't he something to them too. These are the people that my husband gave all his life taking care of. Sorry this post is not intended to gripe about anybody else. Just wanted to say, "Thank You!".