I am so sorry this happened to you and your beautiful children. I hope you are surrounded with love and light to see you through this horrific time. You have right to feel anything that helps you and I understand exactly why you feel as you do. I wish I had words to give that could help, but in truth, there are none. I will say that it helps me when I feel like crying for hours if I just go ahead and do it. One woman said that she tried to hold back for her children. When she just couldn't she found that they surrounded her and cried too. They needed it as much as she did. I will think of you and hope that you are surrounded by his love even though you cannot see him. Your art was a beautiful tribute to him and expressed the pain of grief so well. Thank you.
Rachel, My heart goes out to you and your children. Losing your husband is a terrible thing to live through. At your husband's age it is such a horrible thing. I lived through the massive heart attack, CHF, defibrillator, and heart transplant before losing my husband to a blood infection. Please know that we are all here for you whenever you need to vent or just chat.
Rachel, I am so sorry this happened to you and your husband. You are a beautiful girl with such beautiful children. I am so sorry that you got so few years together. It does seem unfair and I know you would have given him your heart without a moments hesitation. You are in my thoughts and prayers. It is painful for all of us. I do think being able to express your pain is the most important thing right now. We will all be as helpful to you as we possibly can.