I can't take it anymore. I want this pain to get better. Every night I lay on the bed alone, my heart hurts so bad feels like I am having a heart attack. I am crying from inside but have no more tears. If this intolerable pain, intense longing to be with your other half, something happens and turn around to share with your partner and then you realize that it will never ever happen in this lifetime. I find it so hard that he never picks up my phone or calls me up. Never checks up on the kids, doesn't care about all the mess I am making in his stuff. I want him to tell me that he still cares and worries about us. I want him to ask me why I don't laugh or sing anymore. I just want a hug, a touch.