having a down day...

I am having a down day today... I just miss my Shawn a lot...monday will be a year and a half since he left me... I think its just so rough bc I am looking these kids- now almost 4 and almost 3...and they are so different then when he left.. and i know he wouldnt recognize them... i think another major problem with me coping is the fact that i am physically able to move on and he isnt. Its not like a divorce for us- where both can move on to another spouse... he is in heaven playing golf all day and playing with his puppies.... and i am down here with our kids raising them as we wanted to.... having no choice but to go forward....my kids barely remember him and that breaks my heart... and every time i feel something not right in my body- i feel like i am going to die- all mental i know bc a 29 yr old should not think that.... but a side effect of waking up to a 27 yr old husband dead on the floor... anyway, just wanted to vent bc while he is always my waking thoughts... some days are ten times better than others... and even the 20 min workout is not shaking this funk today :( hopefully you guys are having a better day than me...

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Permalink Reply by Virginia on August 4, 2010 at 7:26pm

there is a chat room on facebook there also is this site there also
jumpinjudi said:

ok i thunk what we really need here at this site is a chat room I dont know how to get one does anyone else know????

Permalink Reply by jumpinjudi on August 4, 2010 at 10:35pm

Liz does it get easier the longer time goes by????

Permalink Reply by jumpinjudi on August 7, 2010 at 8:22pm

well here is another sat. nite and all alone but I do have my TV and computor if I only could find a chat room to chat in. have a good and safe nite to all good nite

Permalink Reply by Mary on August 7, 2010 at 8:36pm