It has been now 5 month since my Baby Fernando has left me.. I am totally lost and I feel like I am loosing my grip in most things and feel overwhelmed with tasks. I just seem to forget things even more now since then, I litterally forget what I thought five minutes ago and need to write things down but even then i just stare and burst into tears. I thought it supposed to get better but I am getting more depressed with why I am here apart from the obvious my children. I AM LOST WITHOUT MY BABY FERNANDO!