My wife of 33 years passed away a year and a half ago. I still have times when the loss still is so painful. I got some help from classes at Hospice -- classes or groups made up of other widows and widowers. Hospice also offered me individual sessions with a therapist. Even though you husband may not have passed away under Hospice care, I believe Hospice can still offer you some kind of help. I also got help from antidepressants prescribed my doctor. Try to go out, spend time with friends or make new acquaintances. Especially helpful will be those who have also lost their spouses.Your loss is still so fresh. Gradually as time goes by, it will hurt less. Know that you are not alone in your pain.