Bad day missing my David.
He is on a new journey now and I want to be with him - we went everywhere together. I wish that we could've died together holding and comforting each other - I love you, I love you.... don't leave me behind: I won't ever leave you behind - Lord, why couldn't we have gone together?
Sorry, everyone: some days are like this. It is especially hard as our relationship had many levels: on one I was his caregiver, as well as his partner, brother, parent. 35 years.
I read Christine's heartbreaking message this morning. I wish I had something hopeful to share with her - maybe we're just too new to offer each other any comfort. Some days I'm a little stronger, and can be that for others.
Dear Mary Jane,
Thank you for your beautiful letter!
I am so sorry about Bob - I know you loved him -- are loving him dearly.
David and I did everything together too. One of the hardest things to feel is that of being left behind. But only in the movies do couples get to die holding each other. Still, that's how we all imagine it will be.
Legacy has truly been a lifesaver for me too. Family and friends quickly become available. They don't want to hear it anymore. At legacy we are welcomed and encouraged to express our grief.
I love how you keep Bob not only in your heart but there with you. Davids ashes are in a box on the sofa in my bedroom. I don't ever think of him as being here with me - he's gone. But now I will imagine him experiencing the present with me.
I'm glad that you are keeping a journal; I've always written to my self. It can be comforting.
Mary Jane, you are not rattling on, and you certainly aren't a nut case. I had to get over that w/Legacy too. There is no such thing here.
Wishing you a Happy Thanksgiving, Mary Jane
Your friend, David H
your friend David
I am sending you hugs and wishing for you to have some Peace. I feel like I am on a rolller coaster. One day I am ok and the next I am grieving so hard it feels like I am dead inside. I dread those days like you are having. I feel on the edge of insanity at those times. Stop the pain please God.
It has helped me to journal about my love. I write every memory I have with John. So far, only the good memories. There were a lot of them.
And you having so many years together will have quite a few volumes in your journal if you choose to write about your dear partner.
Go easy my friend.
Thank you, Susan; I understand about the pain, and praying to God for just a little relief - it is crazy-making, At times I don't know what to do with it. I am praying for some peace for both of us, for all of us.
Take care of yourself