I lost my husband of 26 years on November 10, 2009. He was 25 years older than I. We, too, worked together and were rarely apart. He was the love of my life and truly my soulmate, so I believe I can say with all sincerity that I know where you are in the grieving process. When you have had a marriage like you describe, it is very hard to be alone particularly when you have spent time witness others and jhave to return to an empty house. Crying is such a necessary part of grieving your loved one in your journey to the other side of grief. We who have lost the loves of our life are on a journey we did not want to take. Nevertheless, we are plodding along the best we can. When I feel like crying, I cry. When sadness becomes overwhelming I remind myself of aa quote I read:"Do not cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." I have no idea who wrote these words, but they are a great comfort to me. I have to tell you this does not always work, but the further into the grief process I get, the more likely it is to work. I also remind myself that my beloved would not want me to live the rest of my life bogged down in sadness. It would not be an appropriate tribute to the wonderful life we had together. He always had great faith in my strength and my ability to take care of myself. He was my biggest cheerleader. We lived a life full of professional accomplishment and great adventures I would never have had were it not for him. You can get through these rough spots. Please know that there are so many people who are or have been where you are now. We support each other. Remember, we all grieve in different ways. There are no right or wrong ways to deal with the loss of your soulmate.