The other day my life took a turn that at least for right now is making me feel like things will be OK. My husband and best friend passed away on Aug. 17. 2010, and I have like all of us on this site been having a problem accepting that I have this hole in my heart that just can't be filled. Well I did something so out of the ordinary for me that I kept it a secret from everyone.  I for what ever reason was drawn to the John Edward website and while looking around found that he was going to be in my town in two days, so I bought the ticket.

I had watched him on TV before and I have always believed that our loved ones are with us. I have always felt that children and a certain few adults can truly see those on the other side.  When I went hoping to hear from my husband (which unfortunately I did not) I did come away with an unusal peace. One that somehow let me know that he is with me because our love has us bonded to one another. John Edward said something that night that just made so much sense that while I am still very sad and I miss him terribly, has me feeling that I am not alone. He said they are OK, because of the love that we sent them to the other side with and that we are the ones that are not OK, because we are the ones left without knowing of the love that was sent by them when they had to leave us. 

While this may sound like bunk to some, I am now sure that my love is with me and holding me as tight as he can to support me thru this hardest time in my life and I know that one day I will be able to feel his embrace thru our power of love. While I will have hard times and I may not understand why my life had to change, I am now sure that he is with me always. May love and peace find you all.

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So exciting for you Marlena. Glad it worked out and you felt good about the reading from John Edward. I have heard he's one of the best.
Hi Virginia and Kathy,

Thank you, it does feel great...I'm still floating from the excitment. No TV cameras; wouldn't that have been exciting. He is no longer doing his show...bummer. It's hard to be skeptical about his work when you see it happening first hand. I'm a believer!!

And this marriage thing...ooh, that's scary. I just can't wrap my head around that one. I think about, what if I were to care for someone again and they left me like Tom did...I don't think I'd want to go through this torture all over again. Who knows what life will bring...I will follow it where ever it takes me, I'm just along for the ride.
Marlena, i know you can't wrap yourself around the thoughts of another man at this time and we are all feeling that. We just never know what Our Lord has in store though. I had been divorced for 9 years when I met Bill and I wasn't looking for a spouse, just penpals but he turned out to be my soulmate and I am so happy I let myself go with it and celebrate the life we found together. Bill had been married to his first wife 57 years and was a widower for 5 years when he found me online. Don't let yourself worry on it now. If its meant to be, who knows. I hope we all have many years ahead of us and whether they are to be "alone" or with a new mate, let us just let it be while we are still in the middle of the grieving process and whatever is to be will be. When a door closes, remember a window opens so don't keep that window locked tight forever. Be happy and learn to live your life for you and yours for now. Hugs
Marlene that is so cool that you got to hear from Tom. I must admit I'm a bit jealous but it just prove it to me even more that they are there with us. Pleaseknow how happy I am for you, I was hoping to hear about your experience, I'm glad it was a great one.

Marlena said:
Kay,

Well, I did it. Yesterday was John Edward, it was an awesome day. I took my two girls and my niece; we actually got a reading. It was funny because even before he got to us everything he was describing to other people were things that related to us. He was talking about having windows replaced that had the wood rotting off of them - I'm waiting for the guys to come and repair my windows because they are so bad the wood had rotted away from the glass. John talked about someone passing during their second surgery, that was my husband, and he mentioned the #12, my husband's birthdate. He radomly picked a lady in front of me to talk to and then he started saying he was getting "choo choo" and that worked in to "Thomas the train", well my husband, Thomas, was an engineer for CSX railroad. As the girls and I are waving our hands he says, "Is this significant to you"... Absolutely! He then asked if I had been married twice, no, but he says I will be getting remarried. I wasn't too thrilled with that idea, I have no interest in getting married again. John said that his symbol for a second marriage is two rings intertwined, my daughter said maybe it was the headstone we are working on instead. I explained to him that I am working on getting our headstone designed and I am having two wedding rings that are entwined, engraved on our headstone with our anniversary date. So, maybe that's what he's seeing. He said maybe, that could be it. John went on to ask about an emblem on the left side of something I wear and yes, I wear Tom's railroad fleece jacket with the CSX emblem on the left chest. He said, "You wear this all the time?", I sure do! Then he talked about the #21, I couldn't figure that out at first, but then remembered that's his mom's birthdate, and she was supposed to go with me, but decided not to at the last minute. He related Tom's surgery to the lady next to me who's husband had surgery, and then asked if Tom had a liver problem, he doesn't, I'm the one with liver issues. John went on to verify that it was very scary in the beginning, that I was told it was cancerous and very bad, and that there was something "big" about it. I explained that the first doctor I was sent to was a transplant surgeon, I was told it was probably cancer and that I would need surgery. John knew that I did not get surgery, and I confirmed that I refused the surgery. (Tom said that the only reason why the doctor wanted to do surgery was that he needed a new boat and my surgery could pay for that :). He then told me that Tom wanted me to know that he was there for me through the liver scare and that he is here with me now through this. Even after John left us and moved on to another family he was still relating things to us. He mentioned Taylor (Those people didn't have a Taylor) my niece is Taylor. He mentioned tattoos in honor of someone's death and my oldest daughter has tattoos in honor of her dad. He mentioned two tattoos that were alike, both my girls have matching tattoos. He talked about going to court for a malpractice case and that is something that is being looked into as well. I realize some of these things could relate to almost anyone, especially the tattoos, but everything was so spot on!

It was so comforting to get the reading. I did everything in my power to reign in the energy. We all wore bright colored shirts. I had heard bright colors draw in the energy. Each of us had a piece of Tom to hold.. we had his Chevelle keys, his truck keys, his glasses, and his ring, plus we each had pictures of Tom to hold and I brought the same notepad that I had for last years John Edward show and I took notes and wrote Bunzy (Tom's nickname) all over...just trying to get him to come to us...plus Saturday was the 19th month anniversary of Tom's death, so that had to mean something.

We were all so excited to get noticed. It was an awesome day...I can't wait to go next year!
Kathy,
Thank you for your kind words. I think I do live my life by the saying "what will be will be" (even though I really don't like what has become, such as this new life). It's just so hard to imagine anyone that can be what Tom is to me. He's got big shoes to fill!
It's great that you were able to find that love and support when you least expected it. God does work in mysterious ways.
For right now, my kids are my world and I have to take care of them first. We'll see what happens for me in time.
Thank you!




Kathy King said:
Marlena, i know you can't wrap yourself around the thoughts of another man at this time and we are all feeling that. We just never know what Our Lord has in store though. I had been divorced for 9 years when I met Bill and I wasn't looking for a spouse, just penpals but he turned out to be my soulmate and I am so happy I let myself go with it and celebrate the life we found together. Bill had been married to his first wife 57 years and was a widower for 5 years when he found me online. Don't let yourself worry on it now. If its meant to be, who knows. I hope we all have many years ahead of us and whether they are to be "alone" or with a new mate, let us just let it be while we are still in the middle of the grieving process and whatever is to be will be. When a door closes, remember a window opens so don't keep that window locked tight forever. Be happy and learn to live your life for you and yours for now. Hugs
Kay,

Thank you, it was great and the reaffirmation that our loved one is always here and watching over us is so comforting. This was my second year going. If you get a chance to go again, take it. It could be your turn to connect.



Kay Arcuni said:
Marlene that is so cool that you got to hear from Tom. I must admit I'm a bit jealous but it just prove it to me even more that they are there with us. Pleaseknow how happy I am for you, I was hoping to hear about your experience, I'm glad it was a great one.

Marlena said:
Kay,

Well, I did it. Yesterday was John Edward, it was an awesome day. I took my two girls and my niece; we actually got a reading. It was funny because even before he got to us everything he was describing to other people were things that related to us. He was talking about having windows replaced that had the wood rotting off of them - I'm waiting for the guys to come and repair my windows because they are so bad the wood had rotted away from the glass. John talked about someone passing during their second surgery, that was my husband, and he mentioned the #12, my husband's birthdate. He radomly picked a lady in front of me to talk to and then he started saying he was getting "choo choo" and that worked in to "Thomas the train", well my husband, Thomas, was an engineer for CSX railroad. As the girls and I are waving our hands he says, "Is this significant to you"... Absolutely! He then asked if I had been married twice, no, but he says I will be getting remarried. I wasn't too thrilled with that idea, I have no interest in getting married again. John said that his symbol for a second marriage is two rings intertwined, my daughter said maybe it was the headstone we are working on instead. I explained to him that I am working on getting our headstone designed and I am having two wedding rings that are entwined, engraved on our headstone with our anniversary date. So, maybe that's what he's seeing. He said maybe, that could be it. John went on to ask about an emblem on the left side of something I wear and yes, I wear Tom's railroad fleece jacket with the CSX emblem on the left chest. He said, "You wear this all the time?", I sure do! Then he talked about the #21, I couldn't figure that out at first, but then remembered that's his mom's birthdate, and she was supposed to go with me, but decided not to at the last minute. He related Tom's surgery to the lady next to me who's husband had surgery, and then asked if Tom had a liver problem, he doesn't, I'm the one with liver issues. John went on to verify that it was very scary in the beginning, that I was told it was cancerous and very bad, and that there was something "big" about it. I explained that the first doctor I was sent to was a transplant surgeon, I was told it was probably cancer and that I would need surgery. John knew that I did not get surgery, and I confirmed that I refused the surgery. (Tom said that the only reason why the doctor wanted to do surgery was that he needed a new boat and my surgery could pay for that :). He then told me that Tom wanted me to know that he was there for me through the liver scare and that he is here with me now through this. Even after John left us and moved on to another family he was still relating things to us. He mentioned Taylor (Those people didn't have a Taylor) my niece is Taylor. He mentioned tattoos in honor of someone's death and my oldest daughter has tattoos in honor of her dad. He mentioned two tattoos that were alike, both my girls have matching tattoos. He talked about going to court for a malpractice case and that is something that is being looked into as well. I realize some of these things could relate to almost anyone, especially the tattoos, but everything was so spot on!

It was so comforting to get the reading. I did everything in my power to reign in the energy. We all wore bright colored shirts. I had heard bright colors draw in the energy. Each of us had a piece of Tom to hold.. we had his Chevelle keys, his truck keys, his glasses, and his ring, plus we each had pictures of Tom to hold and I brought the same notepad that I had for last years John Edward show and I took notes and wrote Bunzy (Tom's nickname) all over...just trying to get him to come to us...plus Saturday was the 19th month anniversary of Tom's death, so that had to mean something.

We were all so excited to get noticed. It was an awesome day...I can't wait to go next year!
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Marlena, Got a visit last night. Joe and I had a dog that we got when she was only 4 weeks old. Sophie is 2 now. She was very depressed when daddy stopped coming home for at least 4 weeks. Sophi has slept with me every night since Joe passed 9 weeks ago. Before that she was kenneled at night she weighs 50lb. Well around 3 this morning she started whining like she wanted to go out, so I got up and let her out we have a fenced yard and a large patio off the back of the house, after running around like a crazy dog for 10 min I finally got her back in the house. I went back to bed and she followed, hopped up to lay down on Joe's side I still sleep on my side just with more pillows. All of a sudden she jumped back down and went to lay in her open kennel. I got back into bed and laid there for a little while thinking great I'm not going back to sleep now, for some reason Sophi started to whine again and I told her to stop. She didn't, i was feeling drowzy and for some reason I remember thinking Joe needed to tell her to be quiet, she always listened to him. Then all I remember is turning as if I was facing Joe we would always touch when falling to sleep, hold hands, something. It was as if he was there laying next to me. When I woke up this morning Sophi was still in her open kennel. When I told my oldest daughter she said she saw her dad this morning too. He would shoot off rockets with our oldest grandson and thats what they were doing this morning.
When I woke up I wasn't upset but I was confused it seemed so real, like he was tired and needed to rest for awhile, I really hope it happens again. Thanks for listening to a crazy person?
Kay,

Yay, I'm so excited for you! I don't think you are crazy at all.

I think it is so great that Joe was there with you and Sophi knew her place was in her kennel when Daddy is there. And that he came to your daughter, too...It doesn't get any better than that. It's a wonderful feeling when you know they are there.

It's funny how upset dogs can get when they miss someone. I had never thought about it until our 4 year old black lab was so depressed and lost without Tom here; he's still not the same dog he used to be.

Hang on tight to knowing he is there with you when you need him and hopefully he can come through again. I really hope it happens again for you, too!



Kay Arcuni said:
Marlena, Got a visit last night. Joe and I had a dog that we got when she was only 4 weeks old. Sophie is 2 now. She was very depressed when daddy stopped coming home for at least 4 weeks. Sophi has slept with me every night since Joe passed 9 weeks ago. Before that she was kenneled at night she weighs 50lb. Well around 3 this morning she started whining like she wanted to go out, so I got up and let her out we have a fenced yard and a large patio off the back of the house, after running around like a crazy dog for 10 min I finally got her back in the house. I went back to bed and she followed, hopped up to lay down on Joe's side I still sleep on my side just with more pillows. All of a sudden she jumped back down and went to lay in her open kennel. I got back into bed and laid there for a little while thinking great I'm not going back to sleep now, for some reason Sophi started to whine again and I told her to stop. She didn't, i was feeling drowzy and for some reason I remember thinking Joe needed to tell her to be quiet, she always listened to him. Then all I remember is turning as if I was facing Joe we would always touch when falling to sleep, hold hands, something. It was as if he was there laying next to me. When I woke up this morning Sophi was still in her open kennel. When I told my oldest daughter she said she saw her dad this morning too. He would shoot off rockets with our oldest grandson and thats what they were doing this morning.
When I woke up I wasn't upset but I was confused it seemed so real, like he was tired and needed to rest for awhile, I really hope it happens again. Thanks for listening to a crazy person?

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