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Permalink Reply by CINDY POWELL on September 29, 2010 at 8:52pm

DEAR HURTING, YOU HAVE A REMARKABLE WAY WITH WORDS. I WISH I COULD EXPRESS MYSELF AS WELL AS YOU. YOU HAVE SAID IT PERFECTLY FOR THE WAY THAT I AM FEELING. THANK YOU. I AM SORRY THAT YOU ARE FEELING THIS WAY TOO. MAY GOD BLESS YOU.

Permalink Reply by Deb on September 29, 2010 at 9:49pm

Dear Hurting,
So very true - and written beautifully! I, like Cindy, wish I could express myself as well as you. I feel exactly the same way!! It has been more than 15 months now (still counting!!) and I still miss him as much as ever. I heard the song today "One More Day" . . and I thought - just to have one more day, one more hug, one more kiss, one more I love you, one more everything is going to be okay!!! Then I realized, as the song says, it would only make me want another "one more". Thank you for sharing; I am sorry we are all having to feel this way!! May God bless and keep us all. Take care!

Permalink Reply by bc on September 29, 2010 at 9:56pm

You are right Deb, its going on 14 months for me, I do have more positive days because of everything Brad taught me and the gifts of strength and compassion for others. I do it for him. I would also love "One more Day" with him, but as the song says, we would want one more....This life is no fun, there's not much to look forward to but we all have to survive until we are with our loved ones again!



Deb said:

Dear Hurting,
So very true - and written beautifully! I, like Cindy, wish I could express myself as well as you. I feel exactly the same way!! It has been more than 15 months now (still counting!!) and I still miss him as much as ever. I heard the song today "One More Day" . . and I thought - just to have one more day, one more hug, one more kiss, one more I love you, one more everything is going to be okay!!! Then I realized, as the song says, it would only make me want another "one more". Thank you for sharing; I am sorry we are all having to feel this way!! May God bless and keep us all. Take care!

Permalink Reply by bc on September 29, 2010 at 9:56pm

You are right Deb, its going on 14 months for me, I do have more positive days because of everything Brad taught me and the gifts of strength and compassion for others. I do it for him. I would also love "One more Day" with him, but as the song says, we would want one more....This life is no fun, there's not much to look forward to but we all have to survive until we are with our loved ones again!



Deb said:

Dear Hurting,
So very true - and written beautifully! I, like Cindy, wish I could express myself as well as you. I feel exactly the same way!! It has been more than 15 months now (still counting!!) and I still miss him as much as ever. I heard the song today "One More Day" . . and I thought - just to have one more day, one more hug, one more kiss, one more I love you, one more everything is going to be okay!!! Then I realized, as the song says, it would only make me want another "one more". Thank you for sharing; I am sorry we are all having to feel this way!! May God bless and keep us all. Take care!

Permalink Reply by Audrey on September 29, 2010 at 10:00pm

Thank you for writing what I am feeling. Wish I had something positive to add to make us all feel better.

Permalink Reply by Randolph L. Schrader on September 29, 2010 at 11:19pm

Hurting, I agree with Cindy. Hugs to you. Hugs are good.

Permalink Reply by pippa on September 29, 2010 at 11:30pm

sixteen weeks under my belt. Having a very bad day, despite -maybe because of -setting up some fund raising in Liza's name to support ovarian cancer research. I can't believe a year ago we thought we had the world by the tail and our whole future before us . I cannot accept losing her.I had to accept it as she was dying -had to be there for her and protect her however I could. But now it-all the details-come rushing back to me and I writhe to remember and relive them. Oh my god, I miss her so much.

Permalink Reply by Kay Arcuni on September 30, 2010 at 3:54pm

It has only been 6 weeks for me since my world ended but this is exactly how I feel. I don't want to be the person I am right now. We loved life, and together we shared all of it's wonders, I want to be that person again, I want him to tell me I will be OK and that he's OK, he died so quickly without any warning that I so despartely need to know he is not afraid that he is happy. That he's not mad that i couldn't stop this from happening to him.

Permalink Reply by Virginia on September 30, 2010 at 4:51pm

Kay, they are all ok and pain free we have to believe that and I know he's not mad at you it was not up to you it was his time, if it was up to us none of us would be here, he's with you and in his time he will let you know but untill then you have to believe, hugs
Kay Arcuni said:

It has only been 6 weeks for me since my world ended but this is exactly how I feel. I don't want to be the person I am right now. We loved life, and together we shared all of it's wonders, I want to be that person again, I want him to tell me I will be OK and that he's OK, he died so quickly without any warning that I so despartely need to know he is not afraid that he is happy. That he's not mad that i couldn't stop this from happening to him.

Permalink Reply by CINDY POWELL on September 30, 2010 at 8:13pm

JUST WANTED TO SAY IT IS GOOD TO SEE YOU POSTING AGAIN. I WAS THINKING OF YOU THE OTHER DAY. JUST WONDERED WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO YOU.I THINK IT IS WONDERFUL YOU ARE SETTING UP A FUND RAISER IN LIZAS NAME. SHE WOULD BE PROUD OF YOU. I CAN RELATE TO WHAT YOU SAID ABOUT A YEAR A GO WE HAD THE WORLD BY THE TAIL AND OUR WHOLE FUTURE BEFORE US.MY HUSBAND AND I KNEW NOTHING AT ALL ABOUT HIS CANCER UNTIL NOVEMBER AND THEN OUR WORLD WAS SHATTERED.I MISS HIM TERRIBLE.TAKE CARE.

pippa said:

sixteen weeks under my belt. Having a very bad day, despite -maybe because of -setting up some fund raising in Liza's name to support ovarian cancer research. I can't believe a year ago we thought we had the world by the tail and our whole future before us . I cannot accept losing her.I had to accept it as she was dying -had to be there for her and protect her however I could. But now it-all the details-come rushing back to me and I writhe to remember and relive them. Oh my god, I miss her so much.