My husband died 12 days ago and we had the service last week, he was only 49 years old but he had been in and out of hospitals for 10 years since his heart transplant, but his heart developed congestive heart failure and he needed a new heart and also a kidney, but on August 6th he had a heart attack while in the hospital but his heart was too weak and gave out. My 13 year old son isn't talking about anything, my 22 yr old son is 2 states away with his wife and he wants us to move there, but everything is so raw for me right now, I can't think about anything except what I am doing at the moment. Unfortunately I cannot make the house payment because we lose his income, so eventually we will have to foreclose, I just feel so alone and in disbelief that he is gone, that we will never see him again, and our poor dog is so depressed, not sure if he senses what has happened. I just am so sad all the time, I started back to work this week and all I do is sit at my desk and cannot concentrate on what I am doing, all I do is think about everything, replaying it over and over again, until I lose my mind. I know everyone keeps telling me that "time heals all" but the time we need will take time to get here. Thanks for letting me vent, I can put this on paper but it is still hard to talk about.