Muriel, Welcome and my deepest, deepest sympathy to you. So sorry for your loss, you have been through so much, but you are in a good place. It takes a long, long time for the pain to lessen but there are very special angels on this site that will help you get through it. I am so glad I found them, it has been 18 months for me and I don't know what I would have done without them. God Bless and I am sending love, prayers & hugs your way. Take care of yourself, Linda B.
Muriel, I am so sorry for your loss. You may not believe it now, but it does begin to hurt less. My husband of 32 years passed in June 2014 and it just about brought me to my knees. He was my best friend and my soulmate and I thought I could not survive the pain of losing him. But I did get through it. I still miss him terribly, but the hurt and sadness has softened. If you have faith, rely on God to help you get through this. And as one of the other members has said, everyone experiences grief in their own way and their own time. Do not try to rush through it. It is the most painful thing that you will ever experience, but there is only one way out and that is going through it. One day you will be able to appreciate the memories of your partner with happiness and you won't think as much of the things that you have lost, but the things in your life that you can be grateful for. Please keep posting as you need to. It does help. God bless you and help you. Hugs and prayers being sent your way. Dorothy
Muriel, I lost my husband of 38 years 23 months ago. We were alone at home when he died on Thanksgiving morning. We had all these plans as this was his favorite day of the year. I did CPR on him till the paramedics arrived to no avail. It hurt and still does today. My pain is at its worst around the anniversary each month. Sometimes it's so bad I can't leave my house or talk to others for days. But this is better than the every day pain I was going through.