It has been one of those days. I am heart broken. Ok about a month ago my Father -in -law my husband Barrys stepdad had a growth and they needed to do test. Send him to duke. They told him they thought he had cancer but thought it ws a kind that could be treated easily. The growth was not attached to any organs. I thought this is good he will be ok. They did more test last week and today the doctors are saying it is in his panacris( not spelled right sorry,) and he is just a matter of time. He told my sister in law he does not know if he will make it to Christmas. How can this be happening. How am I going to tell my kids who are 16 and 7. That know after losing their Dad they are now going to lose there grandfather. Barrys dad passed away when he was 15 and his mom remarried a few years befor we married. So he is the only grandfather on Barrys side that my kids have ever known. This will be hard enough on the Adults after losing my husband but why does my kids have to go though this pain again only 2 1/2 years later. The other thing is that in July my younger sister who is only 47 found out that she has cancer also. She is going though chemo now. The doctor says she should to well. I sure pray so. I need Barry here more that ever. How am I going to get though this without him? I have been crying today and my heart is aching so bad. This will be the second time that my mother-in-law will be a widow and she lost her son. I need lots of prayers for my family right now. Thanks for listening.