I am reliving the entire week before Doug died. He went to the hospital with what we thought was food poisoning and was admitted. A couple days later and millions of tests he slipped into a coma and I was to find out he had liver cancer. He never woke up. The 29th of Sept. is one year. He was my only family and my strength. Since then I was run over by an SUV and trying to heal with permanent injuries and pains. I can't work as the Kindergarten Teacher I enthusiastically was either nor live life with my soulmate. I haven't been out of my apt. in over 4 weeks and it wears on me but I try to pray and stay in the moment. Friends have gotten tired of coming around so life is not easy. I keep Doug close in my heart and pray God sends me a way to get to the other side. Thanks for listening. I know we are all hurting and my heart goes out to all. BIG HUGS.Tearfully, Ellen
Thought for the day.

"The good news is that, as your sense of balance grows, you'll find it easier to integrate the other side into your life and to discover the clarity in the midst of confusion, the stillness at the center of motion, peace in the midst of turbulence, openness when faced with uncertainty, and the love present behind fear and anger. What it requires is learning to dance with the innumerable paradoxes of your life while anchoring yourself in an extraordinary suppleness and flexibility that will provide the stability necessary to actually find balance in your life."

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Tereca, Thanks so much for you special message. Your story you shared about the note from your husband truly touched my heart and brought tears running down my face. I totally relate. I love the words. It would make a special memory of a refrig. magnet or bookmark. I would love to make it for you if you would like let me know. The story of your granddaughter pulled away at my heartstrings too. Children are such gifts with such intuition. I am sad I never was able to have any of my own...just the hundreds I was blessed to teach and touch their lives in that way. You are truly a gift of a lady. I see so much of your spirit stretching it's wings painfully and flying the best you can as Donnie is forever beside you. I know Doug is beside me too. God do I miss him.  Hugs. Ellen
A refridgerator Magnet would be wonderful!!  I have shared it with friends via e-mail and facebook, and they were all glad to have it.  Donnie was helped greatly my a Native American friend from South Dakota.  Donnie had a hard time accepting our God, but was taught that their Great Spirit and our God are one and the same.  He made many amends and mended many fences, eventually 2 days before he died he asked for forgiveness for himself.  Whew! I was so relieved, and I was amazed how much Donnie relaxed after doing so.  God is GOOD!! He tiook all the anxiety, fear and worries about the after life.

Tereca, my email address is dougandellen@aol.com . Write me your address so I may send you the magnet when I finish it. :)



Tereca Megee said:

A refridgerator Magnet would be wonderful!!  I have shared it with friends via e-mail and facebook, and they were all glad to have it.  Donnie was helped greatly my a Native American friend from South Dakota.  Donnie had a hard time accepting our God, but was taught that their Great Spirit and our God are one and the same.  He made many amends and mended many fences, eventually 2 days before he died he asked for forgiveness for himself.  Whew! I was so relieved, and I was amazed how much Donnie relaxed after doing so.  God is GOOD!! He tiook all the anxiety, fear and worries about the after life.

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