I have become quite obsessive in the last couple of months. I can't throw out anything that has to do with Terry. I have things like his empty cereal box from the hospital, water bottles, receipts, envelopes, utensils, cups etc. I can't get rid of anything even if its garbage and I am so protective over it. I have gotten really upset with my kids for touching or moving things.
Terry and I used to watch "hoarders" on tv. I couldn't understand why these people just don't throw the garbage out. I would get annoyed and comment throughout the show and in turn annoy my husband. He would say for me to just stop watching the show if it bothered me. Now, he is dead and I now understand why they cant throw anything out.
Just when I thought I knew so much, God pulled the rug from under me and everything I knew was gone.